Bits n Pieces

2009-06-18T22:28:00.000+08:00

hate the upcoming ndp... coz... i know he will be watching with another girl.. i will be watching alone... =(

2009-06-14T19:04:00.000+08:00

watching spongebob no longer makes me laugh.. it onli brought heartache n tears to me... coz all i see n hear are ur boyish laughter.. =(

You... Me... Her... Us...

2009-06-14T05:11:00.000+08:00

I am still in a dilemma of whether to hate you or make peace with you... haiz... just why am i still so bother over you... especially in the night...

I know that this just means that I haven let go of you... but believe me... i am really trying so hard to forget your existence... yet... small little things n places we've been just reminds me of you.. of us...

I have to move ahead... I know you had long moved on... You found someone new... you found someone new before we broke up... haiz...

as much as I tell myself not to bother... my heart aches... i am angry... yes... angry with you.. angry with myself...

the only way I know to not pin on you is to waste my nights in clubs n drinks... and thats the only way...

3yrs n 6mths...

How long will I take to move on??

heart pain

2009-05-01T21:15:00.000+08:00

Finally i had broke down... The things that my mum done in my room... Was the last straw that pissed me off...

the pressure n the emotions that i had been suppressing for the past few months juz exploded...

I cant believe that until today... I m still thinking of him... Cant believe that i can still feel that he is doing some stupid thing that i dun like...

I somehow know n feel that he is attached with another girl already... N i have this gut feeling that it happened long before we decide to break... I know its none of my business any more... I have no rights be to bother with wad he is doing now... But why m i feeling so hurt?? Why does it feels like my heart is breaking up into pieces??

Msged him on mon to get my things back... At first... I planned to get back my stuff after my exams... But the moment i tot that he n his new gf might use my stuffy to do stupid... I was disgusted... I get this feeling that he does not want to meet me to return my things... To me its fine... I can always get someone to collect on my behalf... i juz want to faster get my things back... Thats all... Then he can go n do wadever things he wan with his new gf..

Been telling myself to concentrate on my studies... Exam is next week... But my mind will juz drift away... The news just showed the new theme of this year ndp... My heart aches again... Coz.. We went for the ndp together last year... =(

Haiz...

I have to move on... I have to get use of being alone... I have to get use of carrying all my troubles n worries by myself...

Yet.. Why is it so hard to do so...

13th may coming soon... Will he even remember wad day it is?? Haiz...

2009-04-04T03:15:00.005+08:00

decided to delete my previous post...

i cant cry out... i had cooled down after my outrage...

for some ridiculous reasons... i actually felt very sad... i know i shldn't... but i m feeling sad...

after looking at the photos we took over the past 3 n half years... i realised that i do love him.. with all my heart... but i cannot forgive him for cheating on me... i cant forgive and forget... but i still love him... and realli tried very hard to make it work.. but... that video in his hp was the last straw...

i was silly... i shld have left him 2 years ago... but i din.. i wan to believe that he realli will change... and that ultimately... i m the one he loves.... no matter what other pple say how bad he is... i still stick with him... coz i love him.. haiz..

he was a good bf.. took care of my needs and wants in everyway possible... really... all the way to monetaries term... but... still.. just that he cheated on me... that overturns all the goods he done... does he realli loves me?? i m beginning to doubt... maybe becoz i cannot forget that he two-timed me... for countless times...

i realised that i need a man who can stay faithful to me... i need a man i can completely trust... i need a man who would not hurt me in anyway...

not a man who cheated on me.. and lied to me in so many ways... not a man who mis-used my trust to fool ard...

i know i have to start keeping the memories i had with him behind me... i know he will not be there when i need him anymore.. i know i m on my own already... its juz that.. i had forgotten now to be independent after a almost 4 years relationship... i will be fine.. i have to be fine and move on...

i will pick up myself after this fall... i m hurt... but i will nurse my own wounds...

wish you well no matter wad... i will not contact u anymore... i will try to erase u frm my memories... bye...

2009-03-01T19:18:00.003+08:00

Relationships between humans are getting more and more complicated..

I no longer understand what is going on in everyone's mind...

I need a break... a long break from all this...

2009-02-11T13:07:00.002+08:00

using jer's laptop now...

it had been an up and down chinese new year... drama i must say....

driving ard was fun... especially driving ard to frens' hse in the middle of the night juz to gamble... =p

and yes... i lost money... but my lost on the table was considered peanuts... haha... anyway.. its for the fun only....

steamboat at baozhu's hse was realli fun... even though i was crying like hell before the dinner.. tried very hard not to show it and enjoy the gathering already...

almost tio summon when the bunch of us went to serangoon garden for a drink and parked illegal outside the private hsing... lucky i went down to my car for awhile... lucky i saw the cops.. lucky i called the guys... lucky no summon... hahaa... lucky eh~

anyway.. have to stop all gambling session already.... coz.. no.1 no money already... no.2 exams coming... like wad ivan said.. even its abt 100days away.. but u are not going to study everyday.. so that will leaves abt 30 days to study... lol...

btw... juz found out 2 days ago that ivan is my senior in kcp.. haha...

and to you.... i know i will be spending this valentines alone.. haiz... i know you will not understand why i m upset... i oso dun wan to explain why le.. its juz... haiz... alone alone... haiz...

2009-01-22T17:32:00.002+08:00

In sch now....

yes yes yes... i know i haven been updating~ hey~ laptop's down k... i am so cut off from the world... haiz.. especially now.. at this time.. i realli need a laptop to divert my attention away frm certain problems...

giving thanx to my frens for listening and accompanying me for the past 2 weeks.. especially zhu... *hugs*

keeping myself very very busy... studying~ sching~ tuitioning~ slacking outside of home~

CNY's coming~ yes boring time...

BUT!!!! i m going to fill up my 15 days with stuff... all the way frm day 1 to day 15...

Trying hard to move on with my life... since i cant run anymore... i have to face it...

2009-01-06T01:03:00.002+08:00

i know i haven been updating...

been messed up lately...

too many things happened... too little time and energy to think and react...

basically... i want to shut dwn.. i need to....

need a change.. need a huge change away from the pple i know.. tot i know.. tot i could depend on...

*Emo-ing*

realli on the verge of breaking dwn... i m like pissed off with every little thing ard me... things that i usually dun give a shit abt... actually reduced me to tears...

i m literally tearing every day.. every night.. even when i m slping... gosh...

i really need to let go... let go of the grudge and bitterness inside me...

need a wake up call... ESTHER!!!! GET A DAMN LIFE!!!!!!

2008-12-25T05:24:00.004+08:00

Merry Xmas to all..

Juz came back frm a long day~

Xmas dinner with my kcp gang @ Sunset bay on mon nite... fun time.. lame pk.. haha..

hmm... started my 1st tuition class again in tues... god.. i got a girl in my class who is S-L-O-W.. haiz... chiam lah...

at yenting's hse today.... her bday... as usual every year... steamboat~ abit of mahjong~ guitar hero and ps3~

then i m off to meet jer for movie, Yes!man... its a must catch show!!! jim carry.. L.O.V.E him... haha... then~~~~~ PRAWNING~~~ my xmas present frm him... prawning is fun can!! a great activity to waste time.. haha... the onli i dun realli like is the handling of the worms... ekkk.. anyway.. i din handle any.. jer did everything.. that includes kanna pinch by one of the prawns.. hee...

we caught 8 in total in 2 hrs.. not alot for us, compared to the uncles there.. however to emily.. thats alot compared to her coz she onli got 3 prawns in 3 hrs.. hahaha...

the poor prawns are now frozen alive in the freezer... =p

thanx for the innovative xmas present... =)

2008-12-20T01:28:00.002+08:00

alrites alrites.. i've heard u.. i know i haven been blogging.. not used to jer's laptop can..

hmm.. been pretty busy.. ... doing sth.. haha..

looking forward to 22nd xmas dinner... expecting alot of MIAs..

looking forward to 24th yenting's bday steamboat party...

its going to be a seasons of piglets and chicklets.. hee =D

2008-12-09T13:49:00.002+08:00

alrites.. its pretty official....

No 1: My laptop RIP-ed...

the stupid facebook virus caught me unguarded... and the recovery disc of HP suck to the core... reason?? the discs are not working again!! for the 2nd time..

so that explains my absence online recently....

and...

No. 2: My handphone's going to RIP soon.... i cant get phonecalls and msg dun always comes in and goes out... zzzz...

why must everything spolit at the same time?????

anyway... jer rented a car for mi since last fri... a very dirty and "bumped up" nissan sunny... hahaa... oh well... better than no car rite... had fun... i had conquered the hor-ri-gi-ble-ness of the expressway... realised that i love to drive... and drive alone...

winding down the window to enjoy the chilling wind in the middle of the night... thinking over stuff... able to drive to places... one word... shoik!!

thank you~~^.^...

hmm....

received a msg frm bren chen last nite... sth sad and unexpected happened... haiz... woman.. u must take care ah...

2008-12-01T01:18:00.002+08:00

haha.. i think i haven been blogging lately...

hee.. been spending some quality time with my green monster...

ok.. now.. random updates.. not in order...

dinner with baozhu and emily @ bliss.. lotsa bullshit and "armpit" toking.. =p

last lesson at the tuition center.. yay.. i m free for the next one mth!! but dun ask me out please.. i plan to study...

grandma went genting today with uncle and family...

i m officially a 24-point driver... muahaha.. and jer rented a car for me next week to drive!!

sandal gave way yest while having brunch with grandma.. have to buy new one.. god!! waste my money!!!

hang out at grace's crib with xy and tn yest. its gambling time and DS time...

finally.. i think i almost have all my cards replaced.. leaving juz my IC... collection date will be this coming 10th..

POA test tml.. studying now..

now i m wondering if this year i can pass every subject.. sianz...

makan session with gie and bren on the 14th...

supposing to have a xmas dinner.. duno when yet... emily supposed to plan...

bought a new book to read.. allan and barbara pease's why he's so last min and she's got it all wrap up.. and yes.. i have bought all of their books.. except that now.. i have one book missing becoz of my bloody ex.. who refused to return me.. u F*****r!!!!

haha..

jer planning for a trip to new zealand soon.. hmmm.. wonder when.. and wonder if will really happen anot..

been on a mac'n'cheeze craze.. eat and eat non-stop.. of coz.. that explains the weight i've put on.. damn!

i still cannot clear bomerman's stage 2.. so irritated...

ok.. i think that ends my very very random post.. haha.. i'm off to bed.. nitez~

Random

2008-11-19T02:26:00.002+08:00

i want to fly.. i want to fly.. i want to fly~~~~~

i want to fly out of Singapore!!!

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anyway.. watched Madagascar 2... it is so worth the money to watch.. think i m going to watch it again.. lol...

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i want to fly.. i want to fly.. i want to fly~~~~~

i want to fly out of Singapore!!!

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I know that i m procastinating.. but i realli dun wan to stay in singapore.. boredom!!!!!

It's Green~~

2008-11-14T02:50:00.003+08:00

Since i cant slp... i've decided to blog abit.. haha..

Ever since i've lost my wallet.. i felt damn insecured.. totally lost interest to walk out of my hse doorstep... and no one with a moral heart returned my IC.. haiz.. sadz...

However.. jer made my day yest.. haha... He surprised me with THIS!!!!!

lol.. yesh.. as of 12th of November 2008... I am a proud owner of this lime green DS lite.. =D *grin* haha.... love it so much.. its such a cool color..

right now.. i m still trying to figure which kernel i have to install inside.. but i m happy..

THANK YOU jer.... =) know that u worked hard to buy this for me.. =)=)

come to think abt it.. i kinda figured out why i cant slp already... i m too excited to slp.. haha...

i'm nuts.. i know.. 1st i was too worried abt my wallet to slp.. now i m too excited...

anyway.. i m sooo going to hugz my DS lite to slp.. *that is if i can slp* haha...

Happy... Happy... Happy... Happy... Happy...

The Gain and The Loss

2008-11-08T15:58:00.012+08:00

today's entry is on the good and the bad.. its long one.. with loads of pic..

lets talk abt the good 1st ba..

received my 1st bday present yest... =) frm xy, grace and tiannee... happy.. but!!! look at the amt of wrapping paper xy used to wrap.. i was so tired frm opening the present lah.. lol... one layer after one layer..

loved this dress that they bought for me.. =) at 1st tot that it was a scarf.. haha.. the prints look like one mah.. haha.. thanx babes.....

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met up with emily after sch to go kbox plaza for my bday.. hee.. so exciting.. feels abit like 4ch class gathering.. coz almost all the "key pple" that made up the class came.. emily kept saying she felt extra.. coz she's frm 4bs.. come on.. think of the bigger pic man.. we are frm the SAME sec sch can.. muahaha...

opened bottle... chivas.. haha.. spent a damn long time to decide can.. kept making the waitress walking in and out of the room.. haha...

sry.. i looked retarded..

lets intro.. frm left to right..
pohkeong, merril, yiguang, kanghao.

frm left to right:

kanghao, weekoh, baozhu, emily, yvonne.

emily with her boy, max.

haha.. c my face so big.. max oso came dwn.. thanx man...

ok.. camwhore time.. =p

my face looked so big lah...

ghost shot~

the smuggle.. haha.. *shhhhh..*

my boys.. my entertainers in class..

trying to bring back the "class photo" position... haha..

my class.. loved them!!

my besties...

pk being an uncle at kopitiam...

oh.. both of them were singing 童话 (the song zhu hate), when my dear zhu walked in with this!!!

my blueberry cheeze cake!!!!! yippeeeee~~~

haha.. i was procastinating that i wan a blueberry cheeze cake on facebook and on msn.. lol... baozhu saw.. and started to look for pple to buy.. and max bought the cake leh.. hahaah.. i m sooooo touched can.. 爱死你们了....

below are shots taken when i was dragged by pk to go dwnstair for a long talk.. so i duno wad the heck was happening... haha... looks funny though... haha...

Yvonne and moi! i think i can barely open my eyes sia..

then i think at this point.. weichuan (who was sing in another room) came over to gimmi a toast.. damn.. have to bottom up a mug of beer can.. *burp* oops...

all in all.. i enjoyed my party!! thanks gals and guys.. thanks for coming down.. thanks for present.. thank you thank you thank you.. =)

now for the bad news.. haiz.. i lost my wallet.. =( *sob* fuck lah.. i was in the cab and i cant find it.. eileen went back to help me find oso dun have.. whoever took my wallet.. please return me leh.. i juz wan my I/C and driver's license back.. u can keep the rest loh.. haiz.. *sad*

i was so happy de loh.. then this fuck up thing have to happen.. haiz.. made a police report ard 4am.. jer drove down to acc me.. haiz.. sad... sad... sad..

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i was supposed to post this last week.. but.. haha. i was kinda lazy..

celebrated my bday at grace's hse last sat.. haha.. it was a last min thingy.. lol.. only 3 of us bbq.. hahah.. the 1st time so little pple bbq rite.. in the afternoon.. tiannee came dwn to acc us do grocery but left in the evening coz she have to go to her wang lee hom's concert..

during the preparation process.. i think onli grace and me are working.. hahaha. xy juz stand there and watch... then got to assign thing for her to do.. like washing stuff.. haha... she realli do funny ('dirty') things in the kitchen lah.. hahaha..

xy juz posing only k..

she wan to pose for me standing on one leg.. but she cannot hold.. haha..

got alot of food k.. we cannot eat le loh.. in the end.. we have to play texas hold'em to finish up the food.. haha..

after packing up.. headed back to grace's hse.. mahjong!!!! half way through.. ivan came.. lotsa tok cock sing song.. then started playing this!!!

fun can.. ahaha.. mixed the shot glass with alot of rubbish lah.. got red wine, rose wine, bacardi, chivas, beer, root beer, jap green tea, oolong tea, pokka green tea and water....

i had been pretty lucky k... mostly got the none alcholic drinks.. but i was happening grace with hers.. coz she turned into this..

lol... then i am starting to get high.. have to eat food to tahan the alcohol..

me and my onion cheeze hotdog...

decided to change game.. now left xy and ivan playing..

funny loh.. both of them lost.. but i have to help them drink.. why ar? then ivan did a funny thing to beg me to help him drink half a shot of red wine.. wad funny thing?? hahah.. have to see video then u will understand..

anyway.. xy cannot make it already.. k.o in grace's bed...

back to mahjong again...

looked at my hand!!!! this was wad i get the moment i open.. haha.. but too bad.. never play 七对子...

coming to abt 4am.. 2 of xy's fren came.. i oso cannot tahan already lah.. join xy in grace's room for awhile..

thats xy.. labelled "Drunk!"

reached home at 7am.. zzzz... but was woken up by a fone call.. haiz...

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i still wan my wallet back.. =( please please return me.. *sob*

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Once again.. I want to give my thanks to all the peeps who celebrated my bday with me.. haha. thank you all...

Alexander Hospital D&D 2008 @ Swissotel

2008-10-27T04:02:00.010+08:00

alrites.. went to zhu's D&D.. hectic day on sat can..

meet up at 12pm at orchard.. leave ard 4pm.. between those hours.. we wax-ed.. i trimmed my brows.. i chose her dress, earrings, necklances and bag.. we ended up buying the same shoes.. ate at a thai restaurant...

rushed off to zhu's place to pack some stuff to my place for a make over.. omg~~ super rushed!

backed at my place.. i had to bath me.. wear my dress.. "paint" the both of us.. packed my bag.. and i dun even have time to blow dry and bun up my hair.. coz zhu called the cab which arrived in 5 mins.. ahhhh!!!~~~~!!!!! being the beauty consultant for the both of us is damn tiring lohz~

i m going to let the photos do the talking now~ not much though...

zhu juz refused to take proper picture... =.="

finally!! coz i warned her by sighing and staring at her... haha.. she got the hint!

my tix..

it reads Shue Baozhu's Partner..

PARTNER k.. other pple's tix says blah blah blah's friend.. but mine's partner.. lol...sounded weird.. coz the original "partner" to be there was zhu's dearest bf, ah fir.. he cannot make it.. so here i m.. the replacement.. hahaz...

ok.. now.. warning.. warning.. the following photos are of an explicit nature.. lol.... =p...

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shot one

shot two

shot 3

shot four

somemore~~~~

shot five

shot six..

u think tats it?? oh nononono.. this woman's not done yet!

shot seven

shot eight

shot nine

shot ten!

there's more actually.. i deleted them!!! muahaha..

Let me introduce zhu's colleague.. boontong...

Prince Charming of the day~ =D

say cheeze~

my hair's in a mess!!!

me and bongtong

moi!

hee...

din go to westin's new asia bar after the dinner came to an end.. coz eileen could not make it.. that poor girl caught a flu and having fever.. hmmm.. must drink water!! anyway.. so we decided to go laviva for a drink instead..

so long never see robin they all already.. the place changed abit.. new staffs.. bit sadz though.. hmm...

one of zhu's colleague, Freddie, wanted to tag along.. feel so weird.. and that guy's conversation was very lame..

left chijmes ard 1am ba.. met up with jer and chef teh at tpy.. chatted for a long time.. reached hm early in the morning.. 6.15am to be exact.. slpt onli at 7.10am.. yawn~ din go for my 5km run.. haiz..

emily's msg woke me up at 2pm.. met zhu at CP in the late afternoon.. then jer ard 7pm to go his grandpa's hse.. hang out awhile.. last min planned to go xinyu's hse.. coz i was pissed off with sth.. haiz..

anyway.. i haven seen xinyu for 2 weeks liao sia.. miss her.. lol..

btw.. juz now the taxi uncle tried to cheat me of my money sia.. he mixed some 5 cents coins and malaysian coins in my change.. damn heng i checked loh.. else i juz pour it into my wallet.. idiot.. -_-"

ok.. bed time... tataz...

2008-10-23T01:30:00.002+08:00

Absolutely in love with this song.. its as good as his 1st hit.. introduce u *drum roll* Daniel Powter.. hee...

Next Plane Home Lyrics

I woke up early to baby blue eyes from afar
whoah whoah
and when the sun comes through and lights you like the angel you are
whoah whoah
I know I do you wrong when I'm with you I've been gone

With every season change, it looks the same, November to June
whoah whoah
And dont these empty streets skip a beat the flowers don't bloom
whoah whoah
I can't believe I missed your birthday again
and I wanna come back but I just dont know when

Now and I'm so lonely your not here with me
That's why I'm gonna be on the next plane home

The road that never ends next ends around the bend I see your smile
whoah whoah
I'd swim across the sea to be with you for a while
whoah whoah
cos I've made a life of been gone
now the way that I feel I just dont belong

And I'm so lonely you're not here with me
thats why I'm gonna be on the next plane home
And you're you're the only face I wanna see
thats why I'm gonna be on the next plane home

Stand around try to make every moment
and be somebody yeah anybody
it seems the whole world is taking me over
I need somebody to help me get back to you

and I've always been a million miles away
but things are gonna change
I just wanna come home

And you're you're the only face I wanna see
thats why I gonna be on the next plane home
yeah I'm taking the next plane home
Now I'm getting the next plane home
Now I'm taking the next plane home

2008-10-23T01:06:00.002+08:00

Westin on sat nite~~~ =D hee..

haha.. i m so excited.. =p... its going to be a beeeeesy weekend..

heres the plan...

on fri morning = tuition, afternoon = lecture, nite = tuition, late nite = dinner w emily..

on sat noon = appt @ orchard, afternoon = shopping w zhu, nite = D&D w zhu, late nite = Westin...

on sun morning = 5km run @ Padang, afternoon = acc gramps...

see.. i m so busy.. haha..

oh.. bad news.. one of my tuitions' cancelled.. haiz.. i m a few hundred dollars poorer.. december coming soon too.. no income.. damn!

but b-day coming soon.. the day that makes me older by a year.. duno if i shld be happy or sadz..

2008-10-17T22:47:00.003+08:00

Lotsa stuff happened sia.. but kinda lazy to update...

hmmm lets see...

flashed back...

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acc grace to get sth on friday.. basically i juz attended 5 mins of my econs lesson then have to rush off with her.. and i was late for my tuition.. 15mins late.. haiz..

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went out with zhu last sat.. to collect our bag pack for the 5km run on the coming 26th Oct... then kinda do a little scouting for our DnD clothes coz i need to acc zhu for her company's DnD in-place of her bf on the 25th Oct..

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then on sun.. jer kind of popped a surprised visit at my place.. shocked.. but to be honest i was kinda happy abt the visit.. hmm.. however.. lousy stuff happened... dun wan to mention here.. but haiz.. =(

2 of my tuitions was put on hold coz exams over for them.. starting again next week.. tot i can take a rest and lex abit.. but i was soooooo wrong....

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monday after my morning tuition class with my pri6/sec1 kid.. i dropped by my grams' hse for a visit and met felicia to go sch together.. haha.. my new-found kaikis... =)

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tuesday tuition tuition tuition... asked kiong if he can help me make a dress..

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wednesday made a trip down to bishan again coz i need to return the econs notes to felicia.. bought lotsa sponge cake balls with cheeze inside for my cousins.. haha.. they so love me can.. hee... on the account of the food lah..

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thurs.. purposely go vivo city to renew my card... renewed jer's too.. once again.. i show them my linguistic power.. coz jer's card expired way back in april.. i was able to renew his card with the renewal fee of 15 bucks.. =p.. i make miracles happen.. *grin* walked ard to see if theres any good deal on clothes for zhu's DnD...

@ River Island.. i saw this!!!!!

omg.. mi LOVE!!!!!! however.. its fucking ex-pen-sive can.. S$249.00.. yes.. read two hundred and forty nine bucks!!!!!

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no money~~~haiz... its was so comfortable that i almost attempted to walk out of the store with it.. =p

and oh.. i heard this frm emily.. apparently my lady boss had been saying mean stuff abt me.. act-cute bitch!!! argh~~~ *angry*

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today~~ was a damn rushing day for me... coz.. i forgot that i m having a group tuition today in the late morning and i dun have the main door and gate keys of the RC! *slap head*

heng heng, emily rescued me... the damsel in distress.. heee.. hahahaah... she came down all the way frm her bf's hse (Boundry Road there) to hougang to pass me the keys.. *muacks muacks* haha...

我爱死你了。。。

after all my tuitions.. i had to brave through the rain to bishan and sent my grams to AH for her optics appt... met up with zhu awhile in the hospital.. lol.. she dragged me to her office can.. haha.. so funny..

anyway.. here's the DS lite i wanted to get..

Lime Green. Europe Edition. been searching ard at Best Denki, Courts, Comic Connection, Challenger, etc etc.. apparently onli Funz Centre @ AMK Hub have.. sadz.. like that got no bundle..

hmm...

ok.. i m kinda stone-ing now.. i need my zzz..

2008-10-03T23:44:00.002+08:00

oh.. can i make a small small small request?? *smiles sweetly*

can i request for a Nitendo DS lite for my birthday?? pretty please~~~~

please please please.. haha..

thanks in advance hor.. =p..

2008-10-03T23:08:00.003+08:00

Was at the Singapore Motorshow 2008 on wed.. =) jer acc mi..

happieeeeee.... =D

but!!

This year like got not that many varity of cars as compared to the 2004 and 2006 motorshow.. main focus seemed to be on Subaru and Nissan... only one lamborgini, ferrari, aston martin and SLK appeared.. abit disappointing.. still super huge crowd at the convention hall though..

think all are there for the stunt show by Russ Swift.. i love him lah.. parking in 2 sec!! my hero can... jer was actually very sian abt this motorshow.. but after he saw the show.. i think he got very cited up... =D

billy says that i m stealing the showgirls' ricebowl... haha...

after the motorshow.. dropby at Dailas Steak House at Clark Quay... Chef Teh invited us down to eat... ambience was not bad.. food was soooo good... but abit expensive.. lucky got staff discount.. hee..

Thanks ah, Chef Teh...

you peeps must be wondering why i never post the photos up for the food.. haiz.... now i m super super upset... i accidentally deleted the photos i took with my hp... *AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!* i m such a dumb dumb!!!

=( *cries*

2008-09-28T21:22:00.002+08:00

engrossed in the F1 live telecast...

Massa's team made such a grave mistake.. it costed him a penalty and dropped frm 5th to 16th.... -_-"

Alonso is leading still at lap 43... expected that...

Hamilton is 5th now.. he's my age.. and he's worth a millonaire.... and driving a Mclaren... life's not fair.. does he need a new girlfriend or god sister?? i m available!! haha... =p

2008-09-28T18:24:00.004+08:00

out on thurs after with bz.. =) shopped for yvonne's bday present at j8... in the end.. bz kept buying her stuff.. haha...

Partyworld after that ard 3pm... damn.. the KOD increased to $3.50 sia.. damn ex... emily joined us ard 4.30pm... haha.. lots of stupid silly singing happened in the room..

*******

spent 7 hrs in sch.. new econs lecture was fantastic.. mi and my new-found fren felicia saw light at the end of the tunnel for this subj.. haha...

meet jer for a movie on fri.. Big Stan.. very very funny.... very very gay... go watch.. cant wait for the next movie to watch... hee....

*******

Left hse early yest.. need to drop by the post office to collect my bank draft and send the bank draft to UOL... finally done... send it over already... else i m so sure i cannot take my exam this year...

was early at orchard.. =)... was supposed to meet Xinyu at 2pm.. but i was like an hr earlier.. heh... shopped ard.. determined to get the present ready for grace once and for all.. and we are pleased to announce that we did it!!! haha...

reached Shokudo early while waiting for Tiannee and Grace to arrive...

Raffles city was simply overcrowded... F1 race certainly attracted alot of pple.. i can hear the vroom-ing before i even exit the train station... ya.. i m interested in the racing event.. but i dun like to squeeze with pple and only able to watch juz the portion of road in front of me.. (anyway.. jer went and gave me a live telecast.. haha...)

after all had arrived... ordering food time!!! tiannee's treat... =) was a tad spoilt for choice.. haha.. sooo.. we kinda ordered everything..

bought a small slice of cake and celebrated Tiannee's b-day... Happy belated Birthday girl... *muacks*

the four of us made a quick exit out of city hall to grace's hse coz we dun wan to get caught with the ridiculous crowd for the F1... mahjong and texas'em poker.. i lost leh... haha.. oh well.. once in a while lah.. for the fun... =)

2008-09-23T15:58:00.003+08:00

irritated.. upset.. ya ya ya... over small things again... zzzz...

haiz.. rushed to sch yest.. onli to find that my econs class had been cancelled and permenantly changed to friday late afternoon.. dots!!!!!

still have a couple more days and my 1st payment to the bank starts.. yes.. i m officially in debt... and no.. i dun like it.. *grumbles*

anyway.. had a long conversation with gie and bren on msn.. topic: the poly days photos on gie... i kinda searched thru all my backup discs that my god-damn ex had burn for mi.. =)... i found alot of stuff man.. photos and videos.. hehe... luff until i had stitches...

cant post her then-photos up here.. gie will dig a grave for me and push me in... =p....

haah.. oh well.. u all go and imagine lah.. or.. u pple can look thru my old blog... haha.. i think i upload her photos many years ago... =X...

2008-09-21T23:11:00.003+08:00

Juz got home abt an hr ago... yawn.. doing a quick update.. then i m going to bed... long day tml..

started my day rushing to Cheng San library and finally got my hand on the book i wan...

followed by meeting aggie.. and bren.. dim sum brunch at River City Restaurant located at Excelsior Hotel... buffet thingy.. food was alrite.. considering that we are paying ard $20...

Our dim sum~

loads of updates and rubbish chit-chatting.. decided to watch Money Not Enough 2 at GV plaza.. hang out in swensen for icecream before the show starts.. gie was very very en-gross with the msn function in bren's hp..

Money Not Enough 2 was not bad.. i cried can.. kinda touching... =)

anyway.. gie left home early for dinner.. so left bren n mi.. decided to go back to swensen to settle our dinner.. lol...

fish n chips, fried mushroom and moi mac n cheese....

2008-09-21T00:47:00.003+08:00

Random updates

watched 2 movies with jer on fri nite after my class.. Disaster movies and My Best Friend's Girl.... both comedy shows.. luffed the shit out of me...

Disaster movie can wait for dvd to come out or watch online lah... coz damn lame.. but funny... My Best Friend's Girl is a must watch.. =)

******

Mahjong at jiwen's hse last sunday... leon did a damn cock-ster thing.. its called 一炮三响... haha... basically.. he threw a tile (七万) and 3 of us (me, jess and jiwen) gamed (吃胡)... lol...

mine

Jess's

Jiwen's

Leon and his super sianz face...

2008-09-18T19:25:00.002+08:00

Dinner @ Shokudo, Raffles City...

reached there ard 7.15pm.. had dinner with the 4CH peeps... lots of food.. lots of pple.. lots of fun...=)

it was a farewell dinner for Nic Tang whose heading to london next tues.. he will be gone for a year to Le Cordon Blue to take up a culinary arts course... finally making progress to his long-time aspiration.. i could still rem those times when the cookbooks i borrowed frm library for my 'O' level exam, always disappeared frm my table and re-appear underneath Nic's desk... lol...

Gonna miss him..

lots of bullshit chatting with shakil and hui sian.. luff until cramp... nic too.. full of crap and nonsense... jo tai busy buzzing ard the table eating the food we could not finished...

during dinner... billy, leen and me sneaked out of the restaurant to buy baozhu a cake for her be-lated birthday... glad that zhu was surprised and loved the cake... =)

after dinner plan was kbox at kallang leisurepark... but i din join them.. left with jo tai and headed home.. reason.. i din bring enuff money and i have to get my ass to my 8.30am class the next day...

heard frm puimei that nic sang chinese song.. haha.. damn.. i missed it.. lol... now i have to wait for a year later to hear him sing chinese song... but i wonder if he will still rem how to speak his mother tongue... =/.. haha...

ok now... i'll let the pic do the toking...

the food~~~ yumm~~

Thats the bunch of us with nicky before he fly...

******

cut my hair today... haha. FINALLY!!!! muahaha.. went to kimage with xy coz she's bringing the member card... got 20% discount.. =D.... will post up my new hair cut soon...

till then...

Cheers~~

2008-09-15T23:32:00.002+08:00

read this part of a passage in this book.... Adaptive to my feelings.. my tots... haiz...

" ...., I know damn well I'm insane. And possesive. I know that we were quits before you left town. It's been more than a year, and it's been hard on you. It's only natural for you to find someone. It's irrational and childish for me to be upset, and I don't care."

2008-09-15T20:39:00.002+08:00

a sense of uncertainty and bitter-ness overcame me this morning..

in the beginning... i tot i was very certain abt what i was doing... i was determined to dun bother.. dun ask.. dun think abt it.... in fact... give up...

but...

i couldn't...

i duno if its becoz i m bitter abt the incidents that happened or becoz i still have feelings lingering... or mayb both...

i cannt differentiate the truth and the lies again...

tot things are starting to turn ard.. but i seemed to be wrong again..

but why i m still not letting go... haiz...

2008-09-14T02:27:00.003+08:00

Random updates

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been having a difficult time to settle my bank loan.. SIM's to blame... lousy admin stuff! *hump*

******

a student in tuition centre (who coincidentally happened to be jiwen's cousin...) got into a car accident on her way to sch on tues... poor girl... stitches on her faces and cast on her arm, leg and ankle...

******

sch started on thurs... could not slp.. dun dare to slp... 1st lesson.. IS... at 8.30am... all the IT stuff... logic gates and all the '1' and '0'.... got to dig out my poly notes liao... haiz...

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grandma's got to go for OGD before arranging for op date.. =)

******

found out something that i was uncomfortable to deal with last nite.. haiz... even i know i should not be bother by it.. but i do... wad to do.. *confused*

******

cooked today... =) laksa fried rice... got up to do the chopping and frying... playing ard with all my spices.. lemon grass, ginger, laksa leaves... *the list goes on....* hope it tastes alrite.. does it?

******

jer asked if i wan to go genting again during my 1 week summer holiday and new zealand after my exam next year... *looking forward if nth else goes wrong... * oh well...

******

finally bought my shampoo, contact lens plus solutions and my bathroom slippers... yippee~~~

******

finished reading the 4th book by Jim Butcher.. mugging on the 5th one now.. *if onli i m this hard working for exams.. hee..*

******

going to jiwen's hse tml.. with biling, jess and mayb leon and ken... gonna get some shows frm the chicken.. haha.. and perhaps some mahjong? hee...

******

Last but not least... HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY TO MY BESTEST FREN, BAOZHU~~~~ stay happy... =)

2008-09-08T11:54:00.002+08:00

boo hoo...

Bren's off to Taipei today.. shld be broading the plane now...

Sianz... No one to go suntanning with.. No one to talk nonsense with.. No one to go shopping with.... -_-""

Bren!!! I wan u back in Singapore!!!!!

=p

haha.. ok lah.. got to with till jan next yr... BOREDOM!!!!

Bon voyage though...

2008-09-06T13:59:00.003+08:00

was trying to settle my finances when i got home at 5 plus this morning... slpt at 7am.. yes.. the time now is 1.59pm... -.-zzzzz....

woke up by a call frm sch... now.. i cant slp!!!!!

*****

yest... ran ard the whole day for tuition.. tired...

met up with jer at AMK Hub after my last class of the day... dinner at Mos... celebrated his b-day with a Famous Amos Cookie... =) got him 5 boxes of pocky and hello panda.. haha... trick him... then took out the Kenneth Cole Reaction Cry-Cross watch *search for a long time coz its limited edition." =)

went for a movie.. Wall-E... we were like 10 mins late... so missed the starting.. rushing like mad to the cinema to look for our seats but onli to find another couple sitting at our place... spent like another 5mins to have them get the ass out the our place... apparently... their tix and ours printed the same seating number.. but lucky i ask jer to get the tix on wed... while they booked online... yeah~~

Wall-E's a great movie.. watch it.. so cute and touching loh... haha.. after the show.. i had been mimicing Wall-E and M-O all the way home... lol...

*yawn* hungry.. going to look for food... tataz... >.<

2008-09-05T01:03:00.002+08:00

its a upsetting, panic and fuming week...

SIM sux! truly... system cock up like fuck.. arrghhhh~~~

anyway.. on the brighter side.. i've got a new assignment.. =) can earn abit more.. juz work 3 mths.. then i can dun worry abt my mthly payment to the bank.. and i can totally focus on my studies..

have to chiong already.. i m letting no one to distract me.. going to plan a timetable all the way till exam next year... i can make it!! *WOOSH!!!!*

bbq next week.. wall-e tml.. excited!!!

p.s: To Jer, Happy b-day k.. =)

2008-09-01T02:18:00.003+08:00

Thurs to Sun had been an eventful day... got good stuff and of coz the bad...

lets run down the lists of stuff that happened...

Thursday
1. Massaging Spa @ Far East
2. Met Bren to shop ard...
3. Walked the whole of orchard rd.. frm Far East to Orchard Point back and fore...
4. Made a trip to Suntec City in search of Topshop...
5. Both of us shocked that the usual bridge that links across to Citylink is GONE! we went jaw-dropping and "ehhh?? there was supposed to be a bridge rite.." haha...
6. Leg ache frm all the walking..

Friday
1. Met Tiannee @ Somerset...
2. Finally bought "it" after a long search..
3. Makan @ Fish n Co.
4. Tuition
5. Rotting at voiddeck with Emily... met a couple of weird pple...
6. Toes got blister...

Saturday
1. Submited my bank loan.. *cross fingers and hope it will be approved*
2. Met Jer to go Tampines..
3. Ate BK... yum yum...
4. Met Weiling and Tiannee to pass them the clothes they co-ordered with me online...
5. Explored Ikea! haha.. so excited when i was in there.. with the furnitures and all... bought 8 shoe box containers.. 1 spatula... 2 solar lights (spent a darn long time looking for a table lamp.. either too expensive.. or too dim... happy that i discover the solar lights.. hee... )
6. Dinner with Jer @ Yoshinoya, Compass Point..

Sunday
1. Acc Jer to YCK...
2. Bought flowers at the wet market.. (darn cheap)
3. Make a trip to CCK Cemetery... (was pretty lucky that the big rain came after i left)
4. Met Grace to pass her the clothes bought online..
5. Collect movie tix at GV Bishan...
6. Grace got me into a panic mode when she told me i might juz pass 2 subj out of 6... O.O!!! haiz... sian loh...
7. Fetch Grandma to watch 12 Lotus.. show was not bad but not fantastic either.. like the song though.. =)
8. Dinner at J8's food court.. the yong tau hu aunty charged me extra $1... =(
9. Bought a rug (with eeyore print on it)
10. Send Grandma home...
11. Met Bren's mum to collect my jacket...
12. Paid my bill...
13. Home Sweet Home.. or so i tot... until my mum started her nonsensical yelling at mi.. i walked into my room... on my TV and turned up the vol... totally covered her voice.. cant be bother with her... din get to bath.. so i slpt... until not long ago.. that i got up to bath... kept dreaming that my mum was trying to hit mi.. so i kicked her.. haha.. this shows how much i hate her...

next show... WALL-E!!.. meanwhile i need to save money.... coz i still need to buy my lens and cut my hair... been procrastinaing for a damn long time...

zzzzz.....

2008-08-27T21:20:00.002+08:00

if there is any thing i had learn in my past 22 yrs of life... that is.. there is no such thing as family in this world...

coz family dun promise u thing when they know they cannot kept...

coz family dun question ur integrity when u say u will be able to responsible for urself...

coz family dun abandon u when u realli need help....

coz family dun scold u when u had already tried ur best....

i have no family... none... i m alone in this world... i have no family to speak of at all...

2008-08-25T19:58:00.002+08:00

yest was having BBQ at xinyu's hse...

yes.. having bbq.. yes.. yest was raining.. and raining cats and dogs...

reached xinyu's hse with grace ard 2.30pm.. rain~~~

tian nee arrived ard 4plus... rain~~

played mahjong with erwin and grace until 5.30pm... rain~~ (i won $22 pluz.. hee...)

went down to set the fire... rain~~

started bbq-ing ard 6pm... rain~~

actually for a while the rain almosted stop.. but the moment grace said.. "later sure rain one loh.." boom! RAIN!!! big one somemore.. haha...

the bbq-pit was in the open.. so we move the cover to the bench to bbq...

Tiannee, me and Xinyu.. grace refuse to take foto..

finished eating and bbq-ing ard 9pm.. started playing cards.. haha.. i won $1.50 haha... started packing things up and moved back to Xinyu's hse for more mahjong~~

lost 50cents.. lol... but ok lah.. overall i still win $22... lol...

good experience today lah.. bbq in the rain.. everyone felt that machiam like "lost", "survivor" or jungle surviving training like that... haha... fun!

******

then and again.. we are worried abt our results.. god knows when the sch feels happy to release the results.. ... haiz.....

2008-08-23T23:04:00.003+08:00

Suddenly feel very emo now.. must the influence of listening to this song and the cool wind frm the rain... fell in love with this song the moment i heard it while watching Hot Shot... sang by 言承旭.. written by 曹葛..

言承旭 - 一半

一直等一個人等了很久

這一場獨角戲是很寂寞

春夏秋冬我的窗口只有風經過

愛很深有多深我也不懂

妳走後我的心變的脆弱

聽一首歌也覺得痛但我誰也沒有

說右邊的座位右邊的枕頭

都已經空了那麼久

為妳守候那是因為我已經看透

沒有妳的愛這個我只是一半

不哭了不笑了為誰努力我也不明白

沒有人能取代一個圓的另一半

我固執的等待 等風再把妳帶回來

birthday.bliss.balloon

2008-08-23T14:25:00.005+08:00

alrites.. i decide to use the same title as bren's blog entry.. haha..

after work yest.. emily, zhu, eileen and i decided to celebrate bren's birthday @ Bliss.. haha.. it was like a super one mth early b-day celebration.. coz that woman's going to taiwan till jan next year...

my food~~~

the soup~

baby potato salad~

dory fillet with sweet onion sambal~

the food was pretty yummy... except that baozhu's spag was abit too salty... order a bottle of serenade hills... taste abit funny.. haha...

zhu and me...

zhu and i got bren a panda bear as present.. since she is like crazy over panda nowadays... so adding to her collections of pandas... may i present... Birthday the panda...

birthday the panda getting drunk and doing weird stuff...

he wanna try a puff too...

its was a time to gossip and literatelly tok cock when a bunch of girls get together.. especially baozhu.. she got so inspired abt dicks after emily started on a "extra service" topic.. haha.... and when eileen produces a bag of long balloons and a pump.. things got worst... pls refer to the following fotos for more details... lol...

bren looks happy 'stabbing' emily...

here's me.. seriously thinking i can make the balloon fly...

the lastest and newest fashion accessories...

my personal fave recommendation... the balloon specs... =)

see.. bren turned "coo coo"...

get wad i mean now??? everyone turned nuts... started blowing, twisting and bursting the balloons and zhu started comparing the balloons to dicks.. OMG! haha...

when we were abt to leave Bliss the owner asked if we could give him one of the balloon flower that i made... eileen gave him the ugliest one lah.. lol...

HAPPY PRE-BIRTHDAY, BREN~!~!~!~!

P.S: a bummer happened... well happily eating and toking nonsense... there was this lady in pink... fumingly walked over to this guy at the table right beside me... and splashed a pint of beer into his face... the beer splattered loh... kanna me! =( dots.. inconsiderate pple... however.. zhu was like so excited... coz she tot she can catch a "free show".. but the couple left almost immediately... oh well.. lucky that they left.. else that girl will get it frm me.. hump!

2008-08-21T17:16:00.002+08:00

decided to do this before i snooze.. hee

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
hmmm.. damn pissed.. kick his balls.. cut his dick... and burn him alive....

#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
if i m rich.. and fret-free....

#3. If you could be at one place right now, where would it be?
barcelona

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
yes yes yes...

#5. What's your ideal lover like?
a man who loves, see and care for me and me only... NO ONE ELSE.. i dun like to share my man.. i m selfish....

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved... duh...

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
i have no idea... realli... if it happens it happens...

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
wad to do.. attached le i cannot do anything wad.. perhaps secretly hope they will break up ba.. muahahaha.. but seriously.. i wun be like some bitch or whore who goes ard to seduce other pple's bf....

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
a little here and there lah...

#10. What do you want most in life?
money.. money realli solves alot of my current prob now...

#11. Is being tagged fun?
ok i guess...

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
rich.. filthy rich...

#13. Who is the current most important person to you?
grandma...

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
a human being? hah

#15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
that depends.. really... i dun mind to be rich if i m single.. but if i m single and not happy.. got money oso like shit.. however.. if i m happily married and poor.. i seriously dun mind... being in a blissful marriage no matter how poor nvm.. so... conclusion.. depends...

#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be ?
golden retriever... border collie... husky.. why cant sg govt let us have more than 3 big-size dogs.. =(

#17. What are one of those things which you would prefer not to do?
skydiving! i prefer to have my feet on the ground...

#18. What kind of person do you think you are?
a very troubled person...

#19. What do you define as a bad day?
when things juz dun go the way i wan...

#20. If you have to choose between love and friendship, what would it be?
i choose myself!

2008-08-21T16:55:00.002+08:00

my floor is squeakly clean..

been to NSC today.. then drop by grandma's hse.. supposed to meet bren.. but she not feeling well.. so.. rushed back home be4 it rains..

washed my clothes.. took out some of my old clothes to either throw away or give away... pack out my old worn-out shoes to throw away... then i went on my fours to wipe every inch of my room twice... ok lah.. not every inch.. lazy to move my boxes and keyboard.. so i wipe ard the area... heee... but my floor is realli squeakly clean now... i can roll on my floor le....

have to buy some stuff for my room... a small sitting carpet... a few containers for my files.. and a table lamp... =) ikea here i come!!!! haha..

******

been out yest... was in town to check out jer's watch repair status... fossil pple sux at repair.. argh... anyway... i was in a desperate need of a new pair of flats... reason... monday's big rain coz a massive flood in punggol and my shoe's seam opened... =( sadz to the max...

so bren and xinyu acc me to far east to scout for my flats.. after a long search (i almosted gave up...) i found it!!!! yay... within my budget too.. =D i m a happy girl....

then a trip to browhaus to tame my brows.. and to grace's hse for mahjong...

damn silly loh me... 1st round win.. 2nd round lose... i was so cock.. kept xiao xiang gong.. duno why.. argh...

was planning to catch the last bus hm.. but i missed it... sadz.. in the end.. met up with jer at yck.. he poor thing.. kanna bully by a old homeless lady.. haha..

yawn.. tired...

going to take a nap...

nite pple...

zzzzz.....

2008-08-16T05:23:00.002+08:00

cant seem to slp... been tossing and turning for the whole nite...

head hurts.. there are alot of things running through my mind... lots of things i need to give an answer to... lots of things i need to settle soon...

seriously i felt so tired...

i need a switch to off the activities in my mind.. =( i need some slp... juz one or two hours of peaceful slp... haiz...

2008-08-16T02:00:00.008+08:00

after the last entry.. i vomitted the whole nite... haiz... made a trip to the polyclinic yest.. almost fainted while waiting to register... a nurse saw.. took my blood pressure.... 103/58... too low.. so.. she let me cut que... i like skipped 40 pluz pple in front of me...

polyclinic doc sux...

anyway... haven been feeling good... i duno why i have been falling sick so often... felt so lousy...

****

haiz.. all i need how is some concern... is it so hard to get?

yearn for a family to call my own...

*sobs* duno why i juz felt so down and emo these few days... prob the bugs in me ba...

missing him badly.. =(

its a long long night to pass...

2008-08-13T23:11:00.002+08:00

since last fri... i've totally lost my voice...

had to get jer to rush dwn to the tuition center to be my 'voice'.... thanks jer... i think my kids kinda like him...

barely able to get a wink the whole week... coughing non-stop... i can feel my lung muscles growing.. oh.. not forgetting my abs too...

been to the doc twice.. waste my money!!!! i hate seeing doc.. thus.. i hate being sick... felt so lousy...

anyway... i m feeling better... had abit of my voice back... i've got a super sexy voice now k... haiz...

Kampong Fish Therapy

2008-08-07T23:29:00.003+08:00

its a fishy experience today.... hee... went for a fish therapy... excited... with a scary feeling.. coz the moment i dip my feet in the water.. the fishes juz swarm to my feet... and gave me a close feeling of a mild electro shock wave... ticklish can... so scare to dip my whole leg in... but after a while ok le lah... at this one moment while chit chatting with baozhu... i felt a weird sensation in between my toes... immediate body reaction was to curl up my toes... in the process... i caugh a fish.... i think i almost squash a fish to death... =p... hee....

thats baozhu trying to rid the skin on her hand...

my legs... *gu ci gu ci*

i m planning to go back there again.. fun!

2008-08-07T02:59:00.002+08:00

Great! Fantastic!

Since a couple hours ago.. i had been cough mad.. and coughing out phlegm with a tint of blood... juz 30 mins ago.. i actually managed to sneeze out a huge block of mucus or phlegm (whichever) with lots of blood in it...

hurray! my throat's bleeding.... yay~~ -.-"

i cant tok coz it hurts and i cant control my desire to cough... pain pain pain!!!!!! ahhh~~~

i m hugging my 枇杷膏(pi pa gao) everywhere i go... thats the only thing that can numb my throat (other than painkiller).... =( feeling damn sad now... i m sick again... 2nd time in less than 1 mth...

2008-08-06T03:48:00.004+08:00

Name one person who made you laugh tonight
hmmm... Jer with his singing....

What were you doing at 0800?
trying very hard to slp....

What happened to you in 2006?
err... i started sch... hmmm... and a whole lot more...

What was the last thing you said out loud?
Hey pple! Keep Quiet and Do Your Test!!!!!!!

How many beverages did you have today?
H2O....

What color is your hairbrush?
woody brown

What was the last thing you paid for?
Cris-Cut Fries at Carl's Jr...

Where were you last night?
Out giving tuition...

What color is your front door?
Brown

Where do you keep your change?
my wallet lah.. duh!

What’s the weather like today?
Sky's pretty clear...

What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
Anything but vanilla...

What excites you?
for now?? hmmm.. my new mouse... hee....

Do you want to cut your hair?
yup.. planning to cut soon....

Are you over the age of 25?
nope.. 老娘 now onli 23... haha....

Do you talk a lot?
yup... of coz...

Do you watch the O.C.?
Not realli...

Do you know anyone named Steven?
yes...

Do you make up your own words?
hmmm... i do i guess... at times...

Are you a jealous person?
that depends if that person is important to me anot....

Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.
Aggie.

Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
Kenneth.

Who’s the first person on your received call list?
Jer

What does the last text message you received say?
kk.. nite...

Do you chew on your straw?
depends very much on my mood....

Do you have curly hair?
Nope.

Where’s the next place you’re going to?
that will be on thurs to novena villa...

Who’s the rudest person in your life?
Hmmm... me? haha....

What was the last thing you ate?
Roasted pork rice...

Will you get married in the future?
i duno... i hope so....

What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
Dark Knight

Is there anyone you like right now?
hmm...

When was the last time you did the dishes?
not very long ago...

Are you currently depressed?
a little...

Did you cry today?
no yet...

Why did you answer and post this?
coz i m bored and waiting for rachel ray show to come on ch 5...

2008-08-06T03:04:00.002+08:00

a day out with bren... my fave shopping plus hang-out buddy.... *lub ya*

bought lotsa stuff... hee... got myself 2 mouses... one in cheezy yellow.. another is cool blue... my old mouse decided to retire last week... its a torture to use the touch pad on my laptop...

so... yipee... i m or rather.. was a happy girl.. until a war broke out in my hse... zzz.. a war between my mum and my stepdad...

haiz...

i gave up on them...

anyway... pray hard i wun get a fever... feeling kinda feverish since last nite....

going to give myself a good layer of body butter i bought today... and slp! nite peeps...

2008-08-03T22:40:00.003+08:00

been reaching home these two days in the wee hours of the morning....

watched Dark Knight with jer on Fri nite.. Great Show.... worth watching... =) hang out the rest of the nite talking at a coffeeshop near his place... haiz... seriously.. i do miss those times... hmm...

anyway...

watched The Mummy with my GE peeps on Sat nite... hee... show's funny.. but bit lame... after show.. grab a bite at BK then crashed to Jiwen's hse... inital plan was either play wii or mahjong... and yes.. end up playing mahjong... and i won! hee... shiok!

slpt the whole day... my skin peeled the whole day too... ahh~~~

2008-07-31T18:02:00.003+08:00

Sentosa yest with bren... its been almost a yr since i last went back... changed quite abit... the water's so clean.. its blue and green... =) oh.. no seaweed too.. happy...

stole the photos frm bren... i m too lazy to resize... heh...

yes... i know i m very white... but i m super red at this moment... suffering a 2nd-degree burn now... *boohoo* pain ah..... my skin screamed in pain at every moment i came in contact with a surface...

both of us shopped ard vivo.. had mine virgin meal at the carl's jr... the burger's good... then dearest bren went nuts when we walked out of the building... she saw this playground ground (purely for kids below 12 yrs old) and wanting to take photos on them...

went to one figurine shop.. and i saw this!!!!!

Spongebob Squarepants!!! while waiting for the guy to check for the pricing of this oversize Spongebob, we were debating how much it would be costing... price suggested between $29.90 to $49.90... however.. the actual retail price is.... $19.90!!!! haha... i was so tempted to buy.. but.. i squeeze the spongebob back to the shelf... haiz... save money...

travelled dwn to bliss @ punggol park... meet up with emily... the 3 of us ordered a bottle of white wine.. chit chat gossip.. haha.. the normal girl thingy... =)

after drinking.. walked over to the kopitiam for supper!!! food!!!! yum yum...

oh.. i had a terrible time back home.. i was tired but i cannot slp... my skin refuse to let mi slp in peace... *sob*

2008-07-30T02:43:00.003+08:00

sometimes it comes to a point in life where you realised that there are certain things in life that you seemed to have been taken for granted... be it a thing or person...

however... the question we must asked ourselves.. it is too late to change for the better....

hmmm.. anyway.. sentosa tml... i m very determine to turn myself into a roast chicken... hee ^.^v..

so pls... dun rain tml.... let the sun shine~~~~

2008-07-27T19:02:00.002+08:00

the new samsung F480 and samsung i1900 are calling out to me...

arghh.. i cannot waste anymore money buying le... my 2 hps are working fine.. i cannot buy le!!!!!

******

been spenting time thinking abt my future last nite... to study or not... to continue my relationship or not... to do this or that... haiz....

2008-07-26T23:40:00.000+08:00

I need a man whom I can grow old with.. =(

2008-07-26T18:23:00.002+08:00

i m stuck in a dilemma of wanting to cut my hair or not... if i wan to cut, should i cut it damn short or retain the same length...

i haven cut my cut short for 3 yrs... got feeling already... hmm... 烦啊....

2008-07-26T01:35:00.002+08:00

Randy Pausch passed away on 25th July 2008... yes... friday.. yest morning...

i m so sad... he was such a good lecturer...

bren introduced me to watch this video of Randy Pausch: The Last Lecture.... she cried like rain storm... i din.. but.. yes.. i felt sad...

Randy Pausch was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer... he had only months to live when he gave this last lecture at Carnegie Mellon University...

there is a tradition for Carnegie Mellon University... that is to give a hypothetical "final talk/ last lecture" i.e... "what wisdom would you try to impart to the world if you knew it was your last chance?"

Randy Pausch's last lecture was abt "Really achieving your childhood dreams"... here's the link... http://www.cmu.edu/homepage/multimedia/randy-pausch-lecture.shtml... the whole video is a little over an hour... long.. but worth watching and listening to wad he said...

there was a lot of quote i like in the lecture... here's a few...

"Brick walls are there for a reason : they let us prove how badly we want things."

""...when you see yourself doing something badly and nobody's bothering you to tell you anymore, that's a very bad place to be. Your critics are the ones telling you they still love you and care."

"Work and play well with others. Tell the truth, Apologize (properly), Wait and people will show their good side."

Both bren and i agreed that he was a very good lecturer and the lecture was very very meaningful...

haiz.. sadz...

2008-07-25T03:13:00.002+08:00

Juz arrived home..

Spent time with bren and em till now... it was a real catch up with them... since sec sch days...

think we shld do that more often...

today.. i had a load off my shoulders... close frens ard me knows that i had been having a very stress time these days.. but *seriously... praise the lord!!!*** my grandma's heart check-up was given an all clear! =)... realli.. i was so thankfully for the results...

guess i can have a good slp now..

2008-07-24T01:00:00.002+08:00

disappointment runs in my blood...

haiz... haiz~~~

seriously... too many disappointments came at a time.. haiz...

i surrender... *rising white flag*

haiz...

P.S: Mic Tong... thanks for the last min request....

2008-07-22T22:48:00.002+08:00

problems, problems and more problems...

problems at work...
problems at home...
problems in my studies...
problems with my frens...
problems with my life..

when will all these problems solve and end??

2008-07-22T03:10:00.000+08:00

no matter wad i am still a girl.. i still need pamper and concern...

however... i dun seem to receive any for a long long time... haiz...

2008-07-21T05:44:00.002+08:00

Its 5.44am... I cant slp...

been forcing myself to do some maths qns so that I will soon feel tired.. but.. guess wad.. after solving coming to 105 maths equations.. I am still pretty much damn awake... haiz.. how?? *bang head*

Its not that I dun wan to slp... Its juz that I cant slp... there's alot of things racing in my mind...

maybe I shld juz take out my brain for a couple of hours so that I can slp in peace... coz.. hugging my tigger no longer makes me feel at ease like it used to be... haiz...

dun seems to be able to smell that familiar scent in my room anymore... haiz...

*sobz*

fine.. I am getting emo again.. but hey.. that time of the month... juz let me be k...

the problem now is shld I try to go and slp or continue doing maths... zzzz....

2008-07-20T02:01:00.002+08:00

sat seemed to be a 倒霉day for me... ever since last sat...

yes.. today i was angry and upset again.. yes.. i was oso being disappointed again... seemed to be happening every sat... oh pls.. next sat i dun wan the same thing to happen...

took a nap in the afternoon to brush off the unhappy stuff... but after waking up... i still felt very bitter over wad had happened...

i juz have to find sth to vent my fustration and angry... after trying to immerse myself in dvds and games for hours... i decided to clean up one section of my room which i kept telling myself to pack up since last year...

yup.. its filthy and dusty... after spending one hr in cleaning... that part of my room is sparking cleaning.. or at least its not dirty at anymore..

my feeling too... it feels "cleaned up" too.. dun feel so angry and bitter over wad happened in the morning anymore..

心情好多了。

2008-07-19T03:43:00.004+08:00

watching tyra banks now...

topic for today was abt a couple dating for a year taking a 24hrs break from each other to be with another date...

the girl was very firm to her relationship even when her date was very nice...

the guy.. well.. the typical thingy... taking opportunities to step things up with his date.. flirting and all...

tyra mentioned something that is juz so true...

every women in a relationship have a "switch" in them.. women juz turn the switch off when they enter into a relationship.. even they are in a room full of hunks... their eyes onli have their man...

however... sadly... for man in relationship... the switch dun seemed to exist at all.. even they do exist.. they are permenantly spolit... best part is that the switch is not spoilt at the "off " side... but the "on" side... permenantly ON... all they wan to do is to scan the room for babes...

true true TRUE!!!! two hands up for that...

coz... for a woman.. we onli scan in the room for hunks when we are single... for a man... they scan the room for woman whether they are single or not... sad... but true...

so....

curse the man species! damn you! =p bleah....

2008-07-18T23:34:00.004+08:00

a summary of wad i did today...

woke up ard 2.30pm.. bath.. wash clothes... and left hse to meet joanne tai in compass point at 3.30pm...

happy.. coz she pass me the legend dvd... and a hp chain she bought frm hokaido... =) its quite pretty... thanks tai!

did some grocery shopping for my shepherd's pie and mac n cheese.... yes... i m going to complain abt how expensive the food are again.. but then and again.. cold storage gave me a 5% discount today.. haha....

back home... started bumping ard in the kitchen for my shepherd's pie... haha.. my memory did not disappoint me... hee... even my mum says its not bad...

next up.. mac n cheese.. =D excited!

last but not least... went to work.. usual stuff happened... nth much...

2008-07-18T03:56:00.003+08:00

i've disappeared for a good whole week pluz...

been rather rather sick... bad cough that comes with a sore throat... bad flu with lotsa stuff coming out of my nose.. and a very very high fever that comes and goes... recorded at 40.3 degrees celsius...

so.. i paid a visit to TTSH A&E in the wee hours of wed morning accompanied by jer... it was a situtation where the sick took the sick to see the doctor... =)

still sick now.. but much better... much much better...

during the whole of last week... i still went out to give tuition... yup.. trying hard to spread the germs... so basically i was coughing my lungs out while keeping my class quiet...

also...

sth sucky happened last sat... i guess last sat.. in a condition of me being very sick, worried and stress... i broke down after the sms thingy that happened... i dun wan to go into detail of that stupid incident.. all i can say are... i dun need to be judge by any arsehole pple in my life... even my long-time frenz... get ur facts right before you open up ur foul mouth to slander me... btw.. i m still keeping the sms that jack-arse sent me... well... for future use if such foolish thing happened to me again... anyway... say i m petty or watever... YOU are NO longer my FRIEND... period!!

and haiz.. worried on my grandma's health... age are realli catching up with her...

on the brighter side.. i m giving private tuition on top of my tuition classes... 1 kid so far but i think will become 2 by end of the month... =)

bought some new tops.. i m very much into boyfren tee now... own 5 now... more to come!

watched 10 promises to my dog on wed.. i cried!! the show so sad... when socks was dying.. my tears juz flow like a broken tap... if anyone wants to find an excuse to cry.. watch this show!

thinking of cooking shepherd's pie tml.. haha.. but i dun realli rem the receipe... got to go think think...

ok.. thats it.. thats all for update... going to end of with the photos re-sized by bren... *cough* tataz..

2008-07-08T01:01:00.002+08:00

FEVER~~~ FEVER~~~~

haha.. i m getting a fever frm my bad throat... 37.7 degrees celsius... my whole body aches like an old woman...

so tml then i'll upload the pic i took today with bren and emily...

argh~~

FEVER~~~ FEVER~~~~

2008-07-06T23:12:00.002+08:00

was staring into the blank space for a moment juz now trying to think wad i have on this coming week...

and i realised that its a Gathering week... lol...

lets see... i m meeting bren and emily tml... yup.. bren is back frm beijing.. totally missed her...

then on sat.. i will be meeting up with my GE peepz...

sun will be reserved for my pri sch mates...

have to meet up with my poly peeps next week too.. but not sure which day yet though.. haha...

so yup.. its a gathering week...

2008-07-06T12:53:00.008+08:00

was at NDP '08 rehersal yest with jer... =) did't want to go in the 1st place.. coz i had always tot that its very very silly to go to the actual parade and squeeze with 27,000 pple.. its going to be so hot and going to have a hard time to go home.. might as well watch at home rite... however.. i went.. for the sake of my fireworks... my experience with fireworks had always been distance... except for once.. the very 1st time i watch the CNY fireworks with him juz across the river.. =)

in conclusion, the whole ndp BORING!!!! except for the air force and fireworks...

anyway.. =Photos=

we sat at the lime green area.. lots of pple with the "umbrella phenomeno"...

The all famous "led light red hand"

me in my strip shirt... well.. we are "encouraged" to wear red rite...

thats adrian pang in purple

5 hosts in total... dress in purple, bright green, bright orange, bright pink and bright blue... seriously.. i think they look like power rangers... haha.. but adrian pang himself said that he look like a teletubby.. hahaha... how true lah...

some air balls rolling down...

the wheel-chair dance..

the choir

line dance

cheerleading

the red lions

the red lions

Red lions doing some PR (public relations) haha...

moi

the whole parade contingent..

there were a whole lot of fake CM, MP, PM and president... the catch was how the MCs announce it... "let's welcome the PM.... .... .... Stimulated..." hahaha .. the "stimulated" word tickled me... i started roaring with laughter in my seat...

the highest salute for the fake president...

highest salute for the fake president... he muz be enjoying his job...

the march past...

Below are the shots of the black knights.. they are cool...

they are crossing each other horizontally...

they are damn close, rite....

the start of the pic...

the heart shaped... sweet rite...

the symbol for this year's NDP

the singapore flyer

FIRE WORKS!!!!

Pretty...

Videos of the Fireworks

Fireworks Part 1

Fireworks Part 2

Fireworks Part 3

towards the end of the NDP...

Headed over to Pasta de Waraku after waiting for the crowded to disperse abit... food's damn good there... yum yum... =) highly recommended... location's at Marina Sq 3rd floor... go try!

2008-07-04T17:37:00.002+08:00

PSP finally UNBRICK!!!!

went all the way to tamp with chicken... basket.. spent 20 bucks...

i m so freaking poor now lah!!! =(

anyway.. went to weiling's hse... almost went back to TP for makan... now.. got to get ready for tuition soon.. tired~~

2008-07-04T03:37:00.001+08:00

Great.. fantastic...

my PSP got brick...

F**K... ahhhh!!!!!

damn angry now...

2008-07-03T05:27:00.002+08:00

had a busy busy day...

1st.. had to fix my gramp's watch.. then met marcus for some biz tok...

2nd.. bought 2 shirts... met up with zhu for partyworld...

3rd... watch Hancock and Wanted with him today...

tired.. slping time...

2008-07-02T03:36:00.002+08:00

蕭敬騰...

he had juz become my fave singer and guy... haha... he's so cute.. plus he can sing.. hmm.. plus point!!

watched bai fen bai and 大小愛吃 with 蕭敬騰 as guest.. i luff until i cannot take it sia... haha.. and the songs he sang were juz "Woah"...

decided! i m going to choose all the songs i heard him sang today for partyworld tml.. yay ^.^v!!

i so love this guy....

2008-07-01T17:38:00.002+08:00

Xiao Jing Teng is so cute!!!

heh... totally immersed myself in his songs...

love his songs... admired the range of tones in his voice... =)

==**

anyway... baked cookies yest.. and packed my room... did some groceries shopping too.. spent a gross $49++... haiz.. things nowadays are realli getting expensive.. flour alone costed me almost $3... haiz.. ex ex ex...

GST credits are not NOT enuff to cover the expenses can...

**Dearest Government,
Can give us more money?? Thank u..

2008-06-30T13:33:00.001+08:00

maggi mee seemed to be my staple diet these few weeks... i think i have lots of MSG in my blood....

2008-06-30T01:43:00.001+08:00

got craving for my fave food.. but damn lazy to go out and buy...

bored!!

movies anyone??

2008-06-29T19:35:00.000+08:00

I m beginning to doubt my stand and my determination... *sob*

St James Power House

2008-06-29T14:24:00.007+08:00

Was last min drag to St James by Mr Su Dao Ren ard 10.15pm liddat... originally i was on the phone with zhu... one phone call frm Mr Su.. both me and zhu was at St James... hahaha....

Never been to St James before.. lao niang retired le remember??? therefore i was rather sua ku towards St James.... anyway, entry was free... haha.. no need to pay for zhu and me...

Lotsa photos.. reason was we had to wait ard for a table before we can order drinks... so leen decided it was time to cam whore... haha...

~PHOTOS~

leen and moi

us @ a pillar... haha...

me and zhu

Mr Su

leen was trying to smile without opening her mouth..

reason?? she had a missing tooth.. so i told her to use a finger to cover up.. lol...

leen loves me...haha...

"wad??? wad u want??"

yes yes... my hair is in a mess..

zhu's trait to make a face.. join the fun!

leen and ren... she is realli determined to zip her lips.. haha..

cam whores!!

another cam whores! haah....

Finally we got a seat after walking in circles... 1st drink i think was martell with green tea... bottoms up... then ren kept bottoms up duno how many times with me... juz mi.. and i have to drink his share coz he had to drive us home... SEH!!!!

back to cam whoring~~

me and ren.. that hand belongs to miss shue bao zhu...

Ren is jealous that i got cosy with leen.. heh....

us after returning frm dance floor...

me.. tiring after dancing....

covering up her missing holes... so "V"!!!

she's angry coz we left her at table for dancing...

Wei chuan, Wei lian and Ren...

I have no idea wads that face for...

leen and zhu~

@ the Boiler~

left for the Boiler.. my ears rang like shit.. hahah.. music too loud... the seats outside Boiler was cool.. swing bench!! my fave!! haha.. was swinging and swinging.. but i felt seh lah..

the 6 of us took Wei chuan's MPV.. watching doramon dvd inside... damn cock... sent zhu home 1st coz she had to work today.. then search for some place to makan.. in the end.. settled for the hougang coffeeshop opp pungol park... got home ard 5 plus.. coming to 6am i think...

woken up by Mr Su Dao Ren again this morning at 10.12am to go Malaysia... wah..i m realli drop dead tired seh... somemore drive to malaysia leh... tio gan by him for not being on.. kaoz.. i tired lah!!! cannot ah... =p....

Now rotting and nua-ing at home.. getting abit bored though.. mayb i shld have gotten my lazy arse up to go malaysia this morning.. *regret* oh well...

PartyWorld

2008-06-28T17:34:00.002+08:00

PartyWorld... anyone?? =)

been on a ktv craze... went to PartyWorld duno how many times already... guess i m looking for a source to vent my fustration... even i tot i had given myself a solution to my prob.. oh well.. going to ktv seems to be my best option.. =)

anyone wans to join me on my Partyworld "venting fustration" session... juz gimmi a buzz... =)

2008-06-23T00:00:00.002+08:00

since things had been on the heavier side for the past 2 weeks.... lets tok abt something light today...

juz came back home frm yenting's hse... guitar practise.. travelled all the way to woodlands with jiwen, leon and sharu ard 5pm... damn far.. lucky got str8 bus...

felt happy today for the 1st time after feeling down since 2 weeks ago.. the old days seems to be back.. although we play like shit today.. out of tune.. out of timing.. out of everything.. =)... played until my fingertips started to peel... *ouch* i have no idea how are we going to perform on stage next thurs...

decided.. i m going to keep myself busy everyday.. i dun wan to think of unnecessary stuff... its time to end le i guess.. since i did not get any response... see how ba.. see how it goes... haiz...

ok... i have to stop the negative tots.. coz i felt happy today... i m going to keep it that way...

2008-06-21T17:27:00.002+08:00

I fell in love with these song the moment i heard it.. sang by Xiao Jing Teng... written by Ah Xin frm FIR... seems to be able to feel for the lyric... haiz...

萧敬腾 - 原谅我
作词：阿沁(FIR)&陈天佑&吴易纬
作曲：阿沁(FIR)
专辑：同名专辑

请不要分了以後还记得
亲吻过的承诺
你的永久已不属於我
默默低头那时我很多话梗在喉咙
你的笑你的快乐不是我
爱太多想太多
我能感受他比我适合
爱放了手我伪装冷漠比你先说分手

请原谅我原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口
好让你离开我
请原谅我好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受
换你过更好的生活

请不要分了以後还记得
亲吻过的承诺
你的永久已不属於我
默默低头那时我很多话梗在喉咙

你的笑你的快乐不是我
爱太多想太多
我能感受他比我适合
爱放了手我伪装冷漠比你先说分手

请原谅我原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口
好让你离开我

请原谅我好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受
换你过更好的生活

爱过恨过哭过也笑过
亲吻过你的脆弱
其实我比谁都要懦弱

原谅我必须假装爱错
别让时间倒流
我怕说不出口

原谅我没有解释太多心痛
别无所求彻底忘了我
爱原来要舍得

我难过
我才懂

2008-06-21T13:59:00.002+08:00

Having a splitting headache now... haiz.. hurts like hell...

turn off my lights at 5am... barely slpt for 4 hrs and i woke up already..

guess i have too much things on my mind... time to raise my white flags to surrender already?? i m reluctant to do so.. yet.. the situation doesn't seems to allow me to hold on...

it takes two hands to clap... it takes two to tango...

but... well... i m alone now... the one i wan to clap hands and tango with.. does not seems to wan to do so with me anymore... its sad.. disappointing... coz i tot something more that could be done..

in front of family, friends and students... i smile.. luff.. but who knows when my heart is crying and bleeding inside...

haiz.. ok lah.. i need my bed.. the nerves ard my head are pumping damn hard.. realli very pain.. realli very pain... .... ....

2008-06-20T01:42:00.000+08:00

this is it..

to break or to make..

of coz i hope for the latter...

2008-06-17T09:42:00.003+08:00

having alot of thoughts these few days even after keeping myself very busy... thoughts juz floats to my mind when i took those long bus rides...

missed the times with juz u and mi sending messages to one another in friendsters... missed the times with juz u and mi in chalet.. missed the times with juz u and mi walking dwn roads of singapore in the middle of the nite.. missed the times with juz u and mi in genting...

i missed them.. coz there were juz u and mi...

hai...

almost every nite i toss and turn... almost every day i stared blank into space....

i will keep my promise after that conversation with the person u called for help.. i will not call nor text u... however.. i begin to wonder last nite.. the wait... this wait makes me feel worthless and unwanted... is there a need to belittle myself to such state...

so..

i missed the times with juz u and mi sending messages to one another in friendsters... missed the times with juz u and mi in chalet.. missed the times with juz u and mi walking dwn roads of singapore in the middle of the nite.. missed the times with juz u and mi in genting...

i missed them.. coz there were juz u and mi...

juz u and mi...

2008-06-10T05:29:00.002+08:00

haven i mentioned before.. do not lie to me.. regardless wat kind of lies... big lie.. small lie.. white lie or wad...

for.. there will be a heavy price to pay if i caught u lying through ur teeth..

now.. u have to pay for the price... whether it will hinders ur career or not... i will do wad is deem fit to ensure myself in all ways... no point asking mi to drop the matter...

conclusion... if u do not wan to receive such "treatments" then DO NOT even think to lie to me.. i always have my ways to find out soon or later...

this applies to all my frens too!

Lies not good... Lies bad...

** disclaimer: not that i dun lie.. i m no angel.. i lie to my mum the most.. but i juz cannot take it when u have err once.. or twice.. or many times.. and i have caught u ALL the freaking times.. and u promised not to keep me in the dark on everything.. i will not let u off... mayb 1st or 2nd time i will juz get u to reassure me that everything is ok.. but now.. u wait long long oso will not happen... if u cannot kept ur promises to me... i will MAKE sure u keep them to me in whatever ways possible!

2008-06-07T04:25:00.003+08:00

today is a down day...

its lies after lies after lies..

when will it stop?

i m so tired...

was at hm after tuition... was playing game and eating my dinner... but somehow felt something not right somewhere...

and...

i was right... zhu called mi.. and told mi she saw something that does not tally with what he says...

immediately reaction? pissed! women's six sense are not to be raffled with... its always spot on and it always tells me exactly wad was wrong...

confronted him.. after all the argument and ridiculous conversation... i m confused tonite.. very confused... i duno who to believe... my best fren and her bf who had witness the unforgivable.. or the statement that he and his colleague said...

see.. this is why one should not tell such lies to ur partner... SHOULD NOT!!... whether its white lies or not.. whether its scared that i will be angry or not.. u juz shld not tell lies like that... if u had dun nth wrong why lie? now that i had found out the truth... i m even more angry... PISSED...

u think i am still able to believe anything that u said?? huh?? answer.. no.. no... NO!!! even u had done nth wrong at all.. how to believe u now that u lied to me in the 1st place... how to?? teach mi... it is not a matter now whether u were innocent now... coz.. who will believe u?? pple saw...pple saw... not one... but two pple.. 2 pairs of eyes... they say one thing.. but u said another...

haiz.. i juz cant help but cry.. how... i duno wad to do... *sob* why cant u juz stop lying for me to trust u... why... cant u juz help me out here to trust u?? hai.. i realli have to think things hard and through...

confused.. you put me through this confusion... and i dun have a solution this time..

can i juz becoz i love u so much that i juz turn a blind eye to the things that u did and said?

haiz... it juz one thing after another..

why cant our happy days last longer?? why muz u pull stunts all the time? every now and time.. i had this heartfelt thoughts that we could juz stay somewhere away frm singapore... juz the two of us... haiz...

think hard esther... haiz...

sry zhu... i know u and ah fir very angry... i appreciate what u two did as frens to me... u did the right thing... if u 2 had kept it frm me.. i will sure break off all ties with u 2... juz like what happen to alvin and eve... ren and leen.. thanks for coming down when baozhu called u.. i realli din know that both of u will be down... appreciate that too... and ren.. thanx for the msg... "wad are frens for... bo gei gao..." realli realli appreciate that.. i m touched.. realli..

today was a happy then pissed then sad day to me.. but at least now i know i cannot let my guard dwn anymore... and after today.. i know i have those frens to rely on to let me know the truth... thank you frm the bottom of my heart...

2008-06-01T05:36:00.020+08:00

I m back...

Exams ended.. officially last week friday...

hang out at expo.. there were so many fairs... then headed to grace's crib for mahjong till say morning...

met up with zhu in town in the same afternoon... walked ard far east plaza.. got my shoes and tops!! happy!! followed by a treat frm zhu to party world... afterwhich ren, leen and her bro crashed in... mind you.. they din pay anything.. haha... passed leen her very belated present... an addias jacket.. glad that she loved it... in return was treated to dinner at big sissor's curry rice.. yum...

hibernated for 15 hrs after i got hm on sat nite... (din slp since thurs nite... haha..)

then on tues... with juz one bag pack... off to Genting i went!!! hee...

ok.. i was overly excited.. but come on... its the 1st time that i will be out of singapore WITHOUT my family... and its with dear dear... =)

was so anxious... dear's parents however.. seemed to be even more anxious than me.. reason? dearie's mum bought all the necessities for us.. toothpaste.. mouth wash... blah blah blah... and his dad kept asking mi if i had brought medicine.. passport and if i had changed my money to riggit... he even gave us extra money.. haha.. so cute...

anyway.. uncle and aunty sent us to the golden mile on tues morn... so.. after buying coffee, cigarettes and report to my grandma that i m about to set off... we board on the grassland bus... =)

well.. its a long ride.. stopped at yong peng for a break... bought about rm70 worth of food back... we reached 1st world hotel slightly faster than the expected time... was kinda blur at where to check in at 1st... after all the hussle... we are at our small hotel room located at tower 2 - 28th floor...

Us in the bus =)

On our way up!!

The hotel we are staying - 1st world hotel

Mother and baby monkeys.. cute rite

Looking over Genting at our room level... top floor..

*hee*

head off 1st to the time square to buy movie tix... got two shows one is "My wife is a gambling mastro" and "Narnia: the prince naspian" ...

before the 1st show starts we decided to take a look at the ripley's believe it or not... it was pretty interesting.. dear and i was very amused with the exhibits... and went for the van helsing's 3D experience... seriously.. its plain stupid and a waste of money... juz some stand still 3D paintings on the wall and a few staffs hiding at one corner waiting for the right moment to BOO! you...

Chair made of toothpicks.. can hold up to 200 pounds..

History of poker cards..

yup.. he is a great balancer... not forgetting to mention strong..

for me.. i juz wan to prevent them frm falling on my face..

on the other side of the glass panel is a mirror.. with a tv program challenging u to roll and/or flip ur tongue in front of the mirror.. dear did it.. i din.. and heng i din do it... coz.. on this side... u can see all the idiots rolling and flipping their tongues.. haha...

and on top of the glass panel is this phrase... and we agree...

supposed to bring u luck in the casino... and nope.. it din work..

yes.. the manique's hand dropped!

there are enuff ties here for u to wear everyday for 50 years..

after the "scary" moments we've got.. we walked ard bought some snacks for grandma.. and return to times square to luffed our heads off at the 1st movie... then we bought marry brown's back to our room to eat.. rest abit.. and rushed to the 2nd movie which was not that great as the 1st narnia... not that magical i guess... then i bought the 3rd pair of movie for wed afternoon... "Iron man"...

its starting to get cold and misty at nite... bought cup noodles to eat... after cleaning up.. we headed dwn to the starworld casino.. applied for the starworld card... lost rm20.. oh well.. better than this one guy that we saw... he lost rm2000 in juz 5mins... serious.. we juz walked frm the middle of the casino room to the end and back.. he was changing another rm 2000 for chips... mad or wad!!

it was almost 3am when we decided to take a walk to all the hotels.. haha... all linked up wat... most of the shops had already closed though... hee... passed by a couple of seven seven shops.. similar to out seven elevens... and we realised that we were ripped off!!! the cup noodles were 50sen cheaper!!! haha...

the 1st sign was funny.. u have to lift ur skirt when on the elavator.. lol...

dear saw cigars with weird flavour.. so decided to buy one and try.. apparently.. he was addicted... walked back to 1st world's starbucks... wanted to buy some drinks.. but closed already... end up we bought some curly fries and porridge frm marry brown's to our rm to eat...

slpt for awhile.. then got up to makan at this restaurant named flavours... food's not bad...

utensils comes in a box...

fried tofu in thai chilli sauce...

soup of the day... melon soup..

dear's curry chicken rice in a pot

my gong bao chicken rice in pot..

bought popcorns for zhu before entering to watch Iron man.. show was not bad... then we went back to drop the stuff we bought and roamed ard to hotel highlands and other hotels... passed by seven seven again.. and yes.. dear bought the cigars... one box this time... walked back to 1st world... saw kids playing in water and eating ice cream in such a cold environment.. siao... tok oso got mist k... bought a cap for dear... and a very cute box of poker card... its in bone shaped and with dog prints... then we settled down at starbucks for coffee... while dear enjoyed his cigar...

ok... bad shot....

much better... us in the cineplex..

he thinks he is L...

i realli think the both of us loved this kind of chilly temperature.. and agreed that if we ever have enuff money.. we will definitely spent it on traveling... =D

look at the mist!!

was ripped off again at this curry hse... haiz... it was stated self service that we have to go and scooped the food we wan (abit like chiap cai peng) but we had to pay a 10% service charge... kaoz... the food not nice loh... damn salty... then we rest for the nite... but was greatly disturbed by the malay kids next door... haiz... then dear duno why.. woke up super early... i think 12am or 1am?? we started to pack our bags abit... changed and bought marry brown's curly fries again... yummy k... then we drank starbucks again..

us hanging out at nite

oya.. guess wad.. it was raining cats and dogs for like the past 2 days... freezing~~~

seriously... i dun wan to leave genting... haiz.. its like to relax... can do things at our own pace and likings... when pple are slping in their hotel rooms.. we are outside roaming ard... hmmm...

anyway.. on our way back... almost met a car accident... plus we were delayed for 30 mins at the custom becoz 2 mid-age couple were caught in procession of a tube of cigerettes and 30 dvds... which total up to abt $3000++ ... sing dollar k... they refused to pay... haiz... stupid bunch of pple... greedy somemore.. 30 discs leh...

hmm.. oh well.. i still enjoyed my trip very much... =D hee... lets go again k...

2008-05-08T05:44:00.002+08:00

its 5.44am in the morning... i am awake! hmm... well... the fact is i haven slpt yet....

reason?

got a econs paper coming up later at 10am.. drats.. why is it that it feels like i m on a death roll?

argh...

the tots of making my way to expo realli kinda freak me out...

its like... omg.. what if i blank out again... what if i dun understand any qns at all...

haiz... i m realli having exam anxiety...

dear came to find me last nite.. bought my fave pens... thank u dear... he even bought snacks and drinks and stay awhile to keep mi company while i was studying under my void deck...

*touch* =)

but i m still freaking out nonetheless...

*tearing*

tons of formulas are running through my brain now... National accounts.. current account.. govt deficits... multiplier... public wealth... blah blah blah.. the list goes on and on...

haiz.. i hate exams.. i need more time...

even though dear had been reminding me and counting down for me that its 17 days to the day i leave for Genting... cant wait.. realli...

yet the tots of having to brave through the exam papers 1st... makes me feel that Genting can wait.. u know.. wait abit longer.. juz a tiny weeny bit longer..

BUT LATER IS MY EXAM ALREADY!!!!! so wth am i toking abt..

i m realli toking nonsense now.. help..... help~~~~~

strrrreeessssss ahhhhh!!!!!

2008-05-02T01:49:00.001+08:00

alots of things happening..

BUT!!!!

Exam period now.. mugging hard...

promises to update soon... after my exams...!!

Wish mi lotsa luck!!!!

2008-04-23T23:22:00.000+08:00

David Cook sang Music of the Night!!!!!!

2008-04-21T04:57:00.003+08:00

btw.. i have a question for myself...

am i too forgiving...

it seems so that way... haiz...

one day i might regret forgiving.. or mayb i will not... who knows...

having a bad hunch that similar incident will happen again..

2008-04-21T04:45:00.002+08:00

jer's dad told me a story last nite...

there are 20 pple sitting around a big round table in heaven... rite in the center of the table.. there are alot of delicious food.. and each of them hold on to a long long chopsticks...

in hell.. the same situation... 20 pple.. round table... food and long chopsticks...

now.. onli the 20 pple in heaven managed to consume the food.. but the pple in hell were unable to.

why?? think abt it...

ok..

now.. usually how to get to heaven? pple who done alot of good deeds and are willing to share and give..

how abt hell? of coz the opp frm the pple who gets into heaven... they had done alot of bad deeds and are the selfish lot...

so... the pple in heaven shared and give.. they share the food and fed each other.. coz the chopsticks are very long very long..

but in the hell.. pple are selfish.. they onli think of themselves.. that is why they can never feed themselves with such a long chopsticks...

moral of the story? duno.. haha.. u say leh??

2008-04-20T04:22:00.003+08:00

i m utterly mad today..

my dearest idiotiotic big-time liar boyfriend lied to mi once and AGAIN!

seriously.. if its for official business.. why the lies?

u think u are so-called the "businessman" u can lie??

juz when can u kick off ur lying habit? if u dun lie u will die is it?

bloody liar...

u jolly well know that i hate liars.. yet and again... u lied to mi...

dared mi?? u pick the wrong person to dare..

wake ur family up? i can... since i m dared.. i did...

jer.. wake up ur bloody idea lah...

preached to me about living within means when i wan to go genting...

pui!

wad bout u?

u are not living withing ur means... u are NOT even using your own money...

yet.. u spend money like water...

for business purposes?? are u sure?? or was it for personal "face" gain??

preach to URSELF before u start preaching to other...

u filthy big liar...

slapping u served u right to the core!!!

u... u.... argh!!!

if starting to trust u is to be lied by u.. then i guess i've really done wrong...

if stop checking up on u is wrong too... then i guess i will have to start to check up on u again...

btw.. stop using ur father and mother as excuses...

caused.. i've checked with them...

no such things ever mentioned by them...

LIAR!!!!! i hate liar!!!!!!

2008-04-18T01:36:00.004+08:00

haiz... actually i felt very bothered over the conversation i had with dear tonite... its like.. starting ok.. then ended up not ok...

imagine.. graph.. the line is going up.. then suddenly.. it juz dropped.. all the way to negative... *studied too much maths..*

haiz.. juz felt so angry with him all of a sudden... n worst of all.. i dun think he even noticed... argh!!! wth lah!!!

#%^$#^%&^&!*

angry angry angry.. ahhhhhh.....

he is always fast when it comes to solving maths equations.... but so damn slow-witted when it comes to realisation of my "this moment" feeling.. haiz...

u cock head lah... ='(

2008-04-18T00:08:00.002+08:00

tell me.. how right is it for a grown up man to enter a ladies' toilet for toilet inspection unannounced and with the door closed when there are 2 females in the cubicles?

hmmm.... not right??

today.. while hogging up a place at amk ave 6 mac to mug... i paid a visit to the toilet.. of coz.. due to nature's call... i had a shock rite after i walked out off the toilet cubicle to wash my hands... there was a mac staff standing in the toilet...

my 1st thought was OMG!! there's a guy in a female toilet!!! i panic...

then again.. my other thoughts was.. how can a guy enter a girl's toilet?? was that realli a guy? or a girl looking like a guy....

so i kinda stared at that person while washing my hands...

YES!! i confirmed that this person standing in front of the closed toilet door, ticking off his check list, who blocked my exit (i stood there for like 3 mins... he seems to treat me and the other lady to be invisible...) is a GUY!!!

only after i Ummhum so very loudly then he moved aside...

after walking back to my table.. i related the incident and discussed what i shld do... well.. i cant juz let this matter rest... coz it is a common knowledge and a social identity which we learnt the moment we are born... *nan nu shou shou bu qing* meaning.. man and woman should keep a distance.. so how can this man enter a ladies' toilet like that?

so i hurried to the counter to speak to the floor manager.. 1st of all i confirmed with her again that the person who's in charge of the toilet is MAN..... ( dun wan to accuse anyone if its my mistake for wrong gender identity... ) i related the incident and how disturbed i was to know that a man entered into the private restroom which was meant for the ladies unannounced... meaning no knocking.. no verbal announcement that he is entering.. and he din even leave the door open while doing the inspection...

then she explained to me that that guy was not normal (mentally)... the tone she used was like expecting me to be understanding to that guy... haiz.. whether i sympathise him or be understanding towards his situtation or not.. he is still a MAN for heaven's sake.. a being with a dick who is known a man/male!! whether he is mentally able or not.. he still have to understand that there are still steps to follow to do his job...

i even reprimanded the floor manager with this simple fact... if anything happened.. who will be responsible?? it will not be the mentally disable man.. but her.. reason?? she made the guy in charged of the toilet... most of all.. she made a mentally not normal man to be in charge of the toilet...

come on.. juz becoz he is mentally not able that makes him 100% eligble for the toilet job?? if that is the case.. then seriously.. anything happens will be also 100% the floor manager's responsibility...

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anyway.. was rather pissed with dear... haiz.. fed up.. irritating!!!!!

2008-04-16T19:47:00.003+08:00

seriously.....

I have decided wad i wan my kids to learn when they are still a young toddler...

nope.. its not english class... chinese cailigraphy class... ballet class and wad so ever...

i wan to send them for dancing class (NOT ballet) but dance class like samba, jive, tango rumba those sort...

multiple language courses too.. german, japanese, french, chinese dialect such as cantonese, hokkien blah blah blah....

also.. of course... the old tradition of a must... piano class.. =)

haha...

2008-04-16T15:42:00.001+08:00

Missing someone gets easier everyday.... Because, even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other, it is one day closer to the next time you will…

2008-04-13T02:44:00.002+08:00

Dear made mi luff so hard today... i luffed until my jaw hurts... haha...

wad are we luffing abt?

actually.. over nth... realli... over nth... haha... hmm.. ok lah.. i guess over small (stupid/silly) things/gesters that we do... lol...

i must say.. its been a very long time that the both of us luffed so hearty...

I Love You.. =)

2008-04-11T05:33:00.003+08:00

Yawn... its 5.33am... i m so god damn tired... *yawn yawn yawn*

i so wan to slp.. but i have to tong!!!! at least until 7am... reason? haiz.. apparently my mum had stitches on her head... wad the hell happened? honestly... i do not have the slightest idea at all... she simply refused to tell me... haiz... so i have to get up at 7am to apply some cream for her...

which oso explains why she never returns to work after her trip frm japan... hmm...

that is why i m still up at this hour.... one hr pluz to go... zzz...

anyway.. been studying POA with XY at amk ave 6 mac... i must say we made good progress.. =D

oso... i had been having war with the insects living at mac... it was HORRIBLE... ants (red and black), spiders, beetles (the ones with horns), water bugs, blah blah blah... oh ya.. not forgetting there was a lizard shit bombs.... the shit juz dropped from the ceiling!!! and its bloody big sized!!! -.-""

guess we are still going to spend another few more days study at mac... =) muz go prepare already.. XY was mentioning bygon... maybe i will bring that on top of the mosquito patch.. hehe...

argh.. i realli cannot tahan le.. 7am come 7am come.. QUICK!!!

2008-04-08T00:57:00.002+08:00

well.. here i m... back home...

=)

had a rough nite with dear last nite.. haiz.. lucky.. it ended...

I love you still baby.... I heart you... =D

dear acc mi to sch in the afternoon when his class starts at nite..

after class.. rushed over to fetch grandma to my crib...

haiz.. tired coz my bag was darn heavy with my lappy, clothes, books and notes... haha.. not forgetting my super loaded pencil case.. hee...

finished Hero season 2.. *yay* happy that i finished the show.. but pissed with the ending... i m now left dangling with the half ended story.. i m so neither here nor there...

** oh writers.. pls stop protesting... come back to write a good story for mi can... pls pls... **

2008-04-05T18:22:00.001+08:00

hmm... received a sad msg frm a good old fren.. his closed one had passed on... haiz...

Take care k.. my condolences to u my friend...

2008-04-03T15:50:00.002+08:00

at dear's crib now...

trimmed my hair yesterday =)... happy with the end product.. my hair looks much more normal..

met up with xy and erwin.. haha... coz i was so bored at gramp's hse... coz waiting for dear to finish his appointment with his client...

hanged out under one of the blocks ard sin ming area.. tok cock sing song play blackjack... haha... fun.. coz at 1st.. erwin was on a winning streak... he won xy 20 bucks leh... BUT!!! (lol.. there is always a "but"...) in the very end.. xy got too confident... one hand bet 10 bucks.. in 2 rounds.. she lost everything.. lol... she was so buay song....