beTa Off DeAd..

remembered wad a fren said to mi a few nites... "u r a strong ger... u can one.. not a weakling like mi.. u cannot b weak... u can make it" y cant i b weak? cant i falter?

life had been sweet n bitter... more of sweet or bitter? some asked mi... i duno... i cant gauge anymore...

i m such a disgrace to women... i had lost my independence... and became dependence on someone... but now how m i going to regain my independence again...

fuck up... wads wrong wif pple today... boss sae wan to speak to evonne... ok... fine... i pass the fone to her... 1st time... she dun answer mi.. so i waited awhile... 2nd time i called her... she was actually show mi her anger... wtf... after answering the call... she still like very fed up n transfer the call to the other boss... basket... grumbled abt something under her breathe somemore...
wad had i done wrong??? wad the hell is wrong wif this world?? wad the hell is wrong wif all this pple?? fuck up... why is it that when i m being nice... pple juz dun return mi wif the same courtesy... every one... all the same...

now come n sry to mi... wads the use? sae sry got use... still have police for wad...

come to think of it... life hasn't been kind to mi... in every single way... once tot tat having him in my life... was the best thing tat had ever happened to mi... but i guess i was wrong... life will NEVER b kind to mi... wad had i done in my previous life to deserve all these treatments?

i noe i shld not n cannot let my heart feel this way anymore... realli need someone to gimmi one tight slap to wake mi up.... haiz... sad... heart pain... haiz...