depression again..

feeling very troubled after receiving that nonsense... *sob* not that i m heartless or wad... but... wad the point... if i give in... up till the very end... it will have the same ending... always the same ending...

there are so many things i wan to do n haven do... things that i cannot do wif her approval... or wif her around... i m happy n contented wif my present life now.. y disrupt my life??

i guess u guys muz have noticed that i m more outgoing n even more "onz" now... so long as i have xtra cash wif mi tat i can spare... u midnite ask mi go out oso can... eat supper.... chiong... drink... movie... pool... prawning... or juz go drive ard singapore... these are things tat i cant do in the past rite... haiz...

i dun wan to answer or return her fone calls at all... i dun even wan to c her... i juz... haiz... duno how to say oso... its juz tat... i found it so hard tokin to her w/o a need to raise my voice at the end coz she raised hers...

suddenly... i so wan to hear his voice... his voice always have the ablity to calm mi n take away my sadness or troubles... but.. i noe it wun happened again... i do not have tat priviledge anymore...