today is a down day...

its lies after lies after lies..

when will it stop?

i m so tired...

was at hm after tuition... was playing game and eating my dinner... but somehow felt something not right somewhere...

and...

i was right... zhu called mi.. and told mi she saw something that does not tally with what he says...

immediately reaction? pissed! women's six sense are not to be raffled with... its always spot on and it always tells me exactly wad was wrong...

confronted him.. after all the argument and ridiculous conversation... i m confused tonite.. very confused... i duno who to believe... my best fren and her bf who had witness the unforgivable.. or the statement that he and his colleague said...

see.. this is why one should not tell such lies to ur partner... SHOULD NOT!!... whether its white lies or not.. whether its scared that i will be angry or not.. u juz shld not tell lies like that... if u had dun nth wrong why lie? now that i had found out the truth... i m even more angry... PISSED...

u think i am still able to believe anything that u said?? huh?? answer.. no.. no... NO!!! even u had done nth wrong at all.. how to believe u now that u lied to me in the 1st place... how to?? teach mi... it is not a matter now whether u were innocent now... coz.. who will believe u?? pple saw...pple saw... not one... but two pple.. 2 pairs of eyes... they say one thing.. but u said another...

haiz.. i juz cant help but cry.. how... i duno wad to do... *sob* why cant u juz stop lying for me to trust u... why... cant u juz help me out here to trust u?? hai.. i realli have to think things hard and through...

confused.. you put me through this confusion... and i dun have a solution this time..

can i juz becoz i love u so much that i juz turn a blind eye to the things that u did and said?

haiz... it juz one thing after another..

why cant our happy days last longer?? why muz u pull stunts all the time? every now and time.. i had this heartfelt thoughts that we could juz stay somewhere away frm singapore... juz the two of us... haiz...

think hard esther... haiz...

sry zhu... i know u and ah fir very angry... i appreciate what u two did as frens to me... u did the right thing... if u 2 had kept it frm me.. i will sure break off all ties with u 2... juz like what happen to alvin and eve... ren and leen.. thanks for coming down when baozhu called u.. i realli din know that both of u will be down... appreciate that too... and ren.. thanx for the msg... "wad are frens for... bo gei gao..." realli realli appreciate that.. i m touched.. realli..

today was a happy then pissed then sad day to me.. but at least now i know i cannot let my guard dwn anymore... and after today.. i know i have those frens to rely on to let me know the truth... thank you frm the bottom of my heart...