Journey

Was listening to this song.. somehow.. this songs seems to be speaking to me.. i really hope that he will stand by my side still.. but haiz... who am i to hope for anything now...


Journey - Corrinne May

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe

When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
rifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on Calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
To you

angry.. i m angry with myself.. angry with myself for not able to take on anymore pressure already.. family, school, relationship, money...

so have i made the right decision to let go? even now it is done.. i know i cannot turn back already.. but i m having doubts on myself...

i juz cant stop crying... the yearn suddenly strikes me...

i duno if i should feel regretful that i had made that decision.. or if that is the right decision that i shld made...

i m confuse.. n i juz have no one to confide to now already... haiz..

i m angry.. very angry with myself... i guess i juz crashed...

today... 19th April 2007 08.39pm... then i know... TPAG, formly known as TPGE, had offically closed down le.. *sob* happened some time ago.. n i only know now... NOW!!!!

sad.. damn sad.. i was not even inform by anyone...

sad... sad...

double sad.. double blow... after the morning incident.. haiz...

not been feeling too well these few days... life kinda sux too.. pple in the working world got pay cut.. i got allowance cut.. juz after my mum announce this 'news' to mi.. my dear N70 screen spoilt again.. for the 3rd time after sending for servicing twice... haiz.. i need money... big time money...

'dear lord.. please start raining cash can??'

haiz...

today.. finally i fulfiled my wish... haiz.. after a long 15 years.. finally.. realli felt a big burden taken off me... =)

but.. i was equally sadden today.. by the fact that knowing how much this thing means to me but yet can say such things to me.. haiz... ='(

suan le..

now...

i need to fix my hp...

btw.. i m planning to sell cookies... try try 1st.. any buyers??? haha...

We are gambling every single day...

How is that so??

Life is itself a gamble.. a gamble of choices... but.. whether u win or lose.. you have to bear all the consequnces yourself..

In my situtation.. wad will my final bet be? will it be a winning bet or a sure-lose bet?

Juz came back frm sch.. long day.. tired... haven been slping well...

haiz..

Esther.. you have got to think carefully what you want... haiz... i hate these kind of complicated situation.. y m i always involved in this kind of dilemma? *cry*

Think.. esther.. think... consider carefully...

i m not angry... realli.. juz felt sad... n disappointed....

wanted to cry.. but juz cannot...

this had happened too many times... perhaps.. i m tired of it le..

promises are not kept.. then why in the 1st place promised mi.. n kept re-assuring mi when i m re-cfming ur promises...

is there still any hope? haiz....

The Oxford Dictionary's latest definition of the following words.

Cigarette : A pinch of tobacco rolled in paper with fire at one end & a fool on the other.

Lecture : An art of transferring information from the notes of the Lecturer to the notes of the students without passing through the minds of either.

Conference : The confusion of one man multiplied by the number present.

Conference Room : A place where everybody talks, nobody listens and everybody disagrees later on.

Committee : Individuals who can do nothing individually and sit to decide that nothing can be done together.

Office : A place where you can relax after your strenuous home life.

Yawn : The only time some married men ever get to open their mouth.

Compromise : The art of dividing a cake in such a way that everybody believes he got the biggest piece.

Classic : A book which people praise, but do not read.

Smile : A curve that can set a lot of things straight.

Etc. : A sign to make others believe that you know more than you actually do.

Experience : The name men give to their mistakes.

Opportunist : A person who starts taking bath if he accidentally falls into a river.

Miser : A person who lives poor so that he can die rich.

Father : A banker provided by nature.

Criminal : A guy no different from the rest....except that he got caught.

Boss : Someone who is early when you are late and late when you are early.

Politician : One who shakes your hand before elections and your confidence after.

Doctor : A person who kills your ills by pills, and kills you with his bills.

Life is all abt ass;
You're either covering it,
laughing it,
kicking it,
kissing it,
busting it,
trying to get a piece of it,
behaving like one,
or you live with one!!