maggi mee seemed to be my staple diet these few weeks... i think i have lots of MSG in my blood....

got craving for my fave food.. but damn lazy to go out and buy...

bored!!

movies anyone??

I m beginning to doubt my stand and my determination... *sob*

St James Power House

Was last min drag to St James by Mr Su Dao Ren ard 10.15pm liddat... originally i was on the phone with zhu... one phone call frm Mr Su.. both me and zhu was at St James... hahaha....

Never been to St James before.. lao niang retired le remember??? therefore i was rather sua ku towards St James.... anyway, entry was free... haha.. no need to pay for zhu and me...

Lotsa photos.. reason was we had to wait ard for a table before we can order drinks... so leen decided it was time to cam whore... haha...

~PHOTOS~


leen and moi


us @ a pillar... haha...


me and zhu


Mr Su


leen was trying to smile without opening her mouth..


reason?? she had a missing tooth.. so i told her to use a finger to cover up.. lol...


leen loves me...haha...


"wad??? wad u want??"


yes yes... my hair is in a mess..


zhu's trait to make a face.. join the fun!


leen and ren... she is realli determined to zip her lips.. haha..


cam whores!!


another cam whores! haah....

Finally we got a seat after walking in circles... 1st drink i think was martell with green tea... bottoms up... then ren kept bottoms up duno how many times with me... juz mi.. and i have to drink his share coz he had to drive us home... SEH!!!!

back to cam whoring~~


me and ren.. that hand belongs to miss shue bao zhu...


Ren is jealous that i got cosy with leen.. heh....


us after returning frm dance floor...


me.. tiring after dancing....


covering up her missing holes... so "V"!!!


she's angry coz we left her at table for dancing...


Wei chuan, Wei lian and Ren...


I have no idea wads that face for...


leen and zhu~


@ the Boiler~

left for the Boiler.. my ears rang like shit.. hahah.. music too loud... the seats outside Boiler was cool.. swing bench!! my fave!! haha.. was swinging and swinging.. but i felt seh lah..

the 6 of us took Wei chuan's MPV.. watching doramon dvd inside... damn cock... sent zhu home 1st coz she had to work today.. then search for some place to makan.. in the end.. settled for the hougang coffeeshop opp pungol park... got home ard 5 plus.. coming to 6am i think...

woken up by Mr Su Dao Ren again this morning at 10.12am to go Malaysia... wah..i m realli drop dead tired seh... somemore drive to malaysia leh... tio gan by him for not being on.. kaoz.. i tired lah!!! cannot ah... =p....

Now rotting and nua-ing at home.. getting abit bored though.. mayb i shld have gotten my lazy arse up to go malaysia this morning.. *regret* oh well...

PartyWorld

PartyWorld... anyone?? =)

been on a ktv craze... went to PartyWorld duno how many times already... guess i m looking for a source to vent my fustration... even i tot i had given myself a solution to my prob.. oh well.. going to ktv seems to be my best option.. =)

anyone wans to join me on my Partyworld "venting fustration" session... juz gimmi a buzz... =)

since things had been on the heavier side for the past 2 weeks.... lets tok abt something light today...

juz came back home frm yenting's hse... guitar practise.. travelled all the way to woodlands with jiwen, leon and sharu ard 5pm... damn far.. lucky got str8 bus...

felt happy today for the 1st time after feeling down since 2 weeks ago.. the old days seems to be back.. although we play like shit today.. out of tune.. out of timing.. out of everything.. =)... played until my fingertips started to peel... *ouch* i have no idea how are we going to perform on stage next thurs...

decided.. i m going to keep myself busy everyday.. i dun wan to think of unnecessary stuff... its time to end le i guess.. since i did not get any response... see how ba.. see how it goes... haiz...

ok... i have to stop the negative tots.. coz i felt happy today... i m going to keep it that way...

I fell in love with these song the moment i heard it.. sang by Xiao Jing Teng... written by Ah Xin frm FIR... seems to be able to feel for the lyric... haiz...

萧敬腾 - 原谅我
作词：阿沁(FIR)&陈天佑&吴易纬
作曲：阿沁(FIR)
专辑：同名专辑

请不要分了以後还记得
亲吻过的承诺
你的永久 已不属於我
默默低头 那时我 很多话梗在喉咙
你的笑 你的快乐 不是我
爱太多想太多
我能感受 他比我适合
爱放了手 我伪装冷漠 比你先说分手

请原谅我 原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口
好让你离开我
请原谅我 好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受
换你过更好的生活

请不要分了以後还记得
亲吻过的承诺
你的永久 已不属於我
默默低头 那时我 很多话梗在喉咙

你的笑 你的快乐 不是我
爱太多想太多
我能感受 他比我适合
爱放了手 我伪装冷漠 比你先说分手

请原谅我 原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口
好让你离开我

请原谅我 好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受
换你过更好的生活

爱过恨过哭过也笑过
亲吻过你的脆弱
其实我比谁都要懦弱

原谅我 必须假装爱错
别让时间倒流
我怕说不出口

原谅我 没有解释太多心痛
别无所求彻底忘了我
爱原来要舍得

我 难过
我 才懂

Having a splitting headache now... haiz.. hurts like hell...

turn off my lights at 5am... barely slpt for 4 hrs and i woke up already..

guess i have too much things on my mind... time to raise my white flags to surrender already?? i m reluctant to do so.. yet.. the situation doesn't seems to allow me to hold on...

it takes two hands to clap... it takes two to tango...

but... well... i m alone now... the one i wan to clap hands and tango with.. does not seems to wan to do so with me anymore... its sad.. disappointing... coz i tot something more that could be done..

in front of family, friends and students... i smile.. luff.. but who knows when my heart is crying and bleeding inside...

haiz.. ok lah.. i need my bed.. the nerves ard my head are pumping damn hard.. realli very pain.. realli very pain... .... ....

this is it..

to break or to make..

of coz i hope for the latter...

having alot of thoughts these few days even after keeping myself very busy... thoughts juz floats to my mind when i took those long bus rides...

missed the times with juz u and mi sending messages to one another in friendsters... missed the times with juz u and mi in chalet.. missed the times with juz u and mi walking dwn roads of singapore in the middle of the nite.. missed the times with juz u and mi in genting...

i missed them.. coz there were juz u and mi...

hai...

almost every nite i toss and turn... almost every day i stared blank into space....

i will keep my promise after that conversation with the person u called for help.. i will not call nor text u... however.. i begin to wonder last nite.. the wait... this wait makes me feel worthless and unwanted... is there a need to belittle myself to such state...

so..

i missed the times with juz u and mi sending messages to one another in friendsters... missed the times with juz u and mi in chalet.. missed the times with juz u and mi walking dwn roads of singapore in the middle of the nite.. missed the times with juz u and mi in genting...

i missed them.. coz there were juz u and mi...

juz u and mi...

haven i mentioned before.. do not lie to me.. regardless wat kind of lies... big lie.. small lie.. white lie or wad...

for.. there will be a heavy price to pay if i caught u lying through ur teeth..

now.. u have to pay for the price... whether it will hinders ur career or not... i will do wad is deem fit to ensure myself in all ways... no point asking mi to drop the matter...

conclusion... if u do not wan to receive such "treatments" then DO NOT even think to lie to me.. i always have my ways to find out soon or later...

this applies to all my frens too!

Lies not good... Lies bad...

** disclaimer: not that i dun lie.. i m no angel.. i lie to my mum the most.. but i juz cannot take it when u have err once.. or twice.. or many times.. and i have caught u ALL the freaking times.. and u promised not to keep me in the dark on everything.. i will not let u off... mayb 1st or 2nd time i will juz get u to reassure me that everything is ok.. but now.. u wait long long oso will not happen... if u cannot kept ur promises to me... i will MAKE sure u keep them to me in whatever ways possible!

today is a down day...

its lies after lies after lies..

when will it stop?

i m so tired...

was at hm after tuition... was playing game and eating my dinner... but somehow felt something not right somewhere...

and...

i was right... zhu called mi.. and told mi she saw something that does not tally with what he says...

immediately reaction? pissed! women's six sense are not to be raffled with... its always spot on and it always tells me exactly wad was wrong...

confronted him.. after all the argument and ridiculous conversation... i m confused tonite.. very confused... i duno who to believe... my best fren and her bf who had witness the unforgivable.. or the statement that he and his colleague said...

see.. this is why one should not tell such lies to ur partner... SHOULD NOT!!... whether its white lies or not.. whether its scared that i will be angry or not.. u juz shld not tell lies like that... if u had dun nth wrong why lie? now that i had found out the truth... i m even more angry... PISSED...

u think i am still able to believe anything that u said?? huh?? answer.. no.. no... NO!!! even u had done nth wrong at all.. how to believe u now that u lied to me in the 1st place... how to?? teach mi... it is not a matter now whether u were innocent now... coz.. who will believe u?? pple saw...pple saw... not one... but two pple.. 2 pairs of eyes... they say one thing.. but u said another...

haiz.. i juz cant help but cry.. how... i duno wad to do... *sob* why cant u juz stop lying for me to trust u... why... cant u juz help me out here to trust u?? hai.. i realli have to think things hard and through...

confused.. you put me through this confusion... and i dun have a solution this time..

can i juz becoz i love u so much that i juz turn a blind eye to the things that u did and said?

haiz... it juz one thing after another..

why cant our happy days last longer?? why muz u pull stunts all the time? every now and time.. i had this heartfelt thoughts that we could juz stay somewhere away frm singapore... juz the two of us... haiz...

think hard esther... haiz...

sry zhu... i know u and ah fir very angry... i appreciate what u two did as frens to me... u did the right thing... if u 2 had kept it frm me.. i will sure break off all ties with u 2... juz like what happen to alvin and eve... ren and leen.. thanks for coming down when baozhu called u.. i realli din know that both of u will be down... appreciate that too... and ren.. thanx for the msg... "wad are frens for... bo gei gao..." realli realli appreciate that.. i m touched.. realli..

today was a happy then pissed then sad day to me.. but at least now i know i cannot let my guard dwn anymore... and after today.. i know i have those frens to rely on to let me know the truth... thank you frm the bottom of my heart...

I m back...

Exams ended.. officially last week friday...

hang out at expo.. there were so many fairs... then headed to grace's crib for mahjong till say morning...

met up with zhu in town in the same afternoon... walked ard far east plaza.. got my shoes and tops!! happy!! followed by a treat frm zhu to party world... afterwhich ren, leen and her bro crashed in... mind you.. they din pay anything.. haha... passed leen her very belated present... an addias jacket.. glad that she loved it... in return was treated to dinner at big sissor's curry rice.. yum...

hibernated for 15 hrs after i got hm on sat nite... (din slp since thurs nite... haha..)

then on tues... with juz one bag pack... off to Genting i went!!! hee...

ok.. i was overly excited.. but come on... its the 1st time that i will be out of singapore WITHOUT my family... and its with dear dear... =)

was so anxious... dear's parents however.. seemed to be even more anxious than me.. reason? dearie's mum bought all the necessities for us.. toothpaste.. mouth wash... blah blah blah... and his dad kept asking mi if i had brought medicine.. passport and if i had changed my money to riggit... he even gave us extra money.. haha.. so cute...

anyway.. uncle and aunty sent us to the golden mile on tues morn... so.. after buying coffee, cigarettes and report to my grandma that i m about to set off... we board on the grassland bus... =)

well.. its a long ride.. stopped at yong peng for a break... bought about rm70 worth of food back... we reached 1st world hotel slightly faster than the expected time... was kinda blur at where to check in at 1st... after all the hussle... we are at our small hotel room located at tower 2 - 28th floor...

Us in the bus =)

=D

On our way up!!


The hotel we are staying - 1st world hotel


Mother and baby monkeys.. cute rite

Looking over Genting at our room level... top floor..

*hee*

head off 1st to the time square to buy movie tix... got two shows one is "My wife is a gambling mastro" and "Narnia: the prince naspian" ...

before the 1st show starts we decided to take a look at the ripley's believe it or not... it was pretty interesting.. dear and i was very amused with the exhibits... and went for the van helsing's 3D experience... seriously.. its plain stupid and a waste of money... juz some stand still 3D paintings on the wall and a few staffs hiding at one corner waiting for the right moment to BOO! you...

Chair made of toothpicks.. can hold up to 200 pounds..

History of poker cards..

yup.. he is a great balancer... not forgetting to mention strong..


for me.. i juz wan to prevent them frm falling on my face..

on the other side of the glass panel is a mirror.. with a tv program challenging u to roll and/or flip ur tongue in front of the mirror.. dear did it.. i din.. and heng i din do it... coz.. on this side... u can see all the idiots rolling and flipping their tongues.. haha...


and on top of the glass panel is this phrase... and we agree...

supposed to bring u luck in the casino... and nope.. it din work..


yes.. the manique's hand dropped!

there are enuff ties here for u to wear everyday for 50 years..

after the "scary" moments we've got.. we walked ard bought some snacks for grandma.. and return to times square to luffed our heads off at the 1st movie... then we bought marry brown's back to our room to eat.. rest abit.. and rushed to the 2nd movie which was not that great as the 1st narnia... not that magical i guess... then i bought the 3rd pair of movie for wed afternoon... "Iron man"...

its starting to get cold and misty at nite... bought cup noodles to eat... after cleaning up.. we headed dwn to the starworld casino.. applied for the starworld card... lost rm20.. oh well.. better than this one guy that we saw... he lost rm2000 in juz 5mins... serious.. we juz walked frm the middle of the casino room to the end and back.. he was changing another rm 2000 for chips... mad or wad!!

it was almost 3am when we decided to take a walk to all the hotels.. haha... all linked up wat... most of the shops had already closed though... hee... passed by a couple of seven seven shops.. similar to out seven elevens... and we realised that we were ripped off!!! the cup noodles were 50sen cheaper!!! haha...

the 1st sign was funny.. u have to lift ur skirt when on the elavator.. lol...

dear saw cigars with weird flavour.. so decided to buy one and try.. apparently.. he was addicted... walked back to 1st world's starbucks... wanted to buy some drinks.. but closed already... end up we bought some curly fries and porridge frm marry brown's to our rm to eat...

slpt for awhile.. then got up to makan at this restaurant named flavours... food's not bad...

utensils comes in a box...

fried tofu in thai chilli sauce...


soup of the day... melon soup..

dear's curry chicken rice in a pot

my gong bao chicken rice in pot..

bought popcorns for zhu before entering to watch Iron man.. show was not bad... then we went back to drop the stuff we bought and roamed ard to hotel highlands and other hotels... passed by seven seven again.. and yes.. dear bought the cigars... one box this time... walked back to 1st world... saw kids playing in water and eating ice cream in such a cold environment.. siao... tok oso got mist k... bought a cap for dear... and a very cute box of poker card... its in bone shaped and with dog prints... then we settled down at starbucks for coffee... while dear enjoyed his cigar...

ok... bad shot....

much better... us in the cineplex..

he thinks he is L...

i realli think the both of us loved this kind of chilly temperature.. and agreed that if we ever have enuff money.. we will definitely spent it on traveling... =D

look at the mist!!

was ripped off again at this curry hse... haiz... it was stated self service that we have to go and scooped the food we wan (abit like chiap cai peng) but we had to pay a 10% service charge... kaoz... the food not nice loh... damn salty... then we rest for the nite... but was greatly disturbed by the malay kids next door... haiz... then dear duno why.. woke up super early... i think 12am or 1am?? we started to pack our bags abit... changed and bought marry brown's curly fries again... yummy k... then we drank starbucks again..

us hanging out at nite

oya.. guess wad.. it was raining cats and dogs for like the past 2 days... freezing~~~

seriously... i dun wan to leave genting... haiz.. its like to relax... can do things at our own pace and likings... when pple are slping in their hotel rooms.. we are outside roaming ard... hmmm...

anyway.. on our way back... almost met a car accident... plus we were delayed for 30 mins at the custom becoz 2 mid-age couple were caught in procession of a tube of cigerettes and 30 dvds... which total up to abt $3000++ ... sing dollar k... they refused to pay... haiz... stupid bunch of pple... greedy somemore.. 30 discs leh...

hmm.. oh well.. i still enjoyed my trip very much... =D hee... lets go again k...