St James Power House

Was last min drag to St James by Mr Su Dao Ren ard 10.15pm liddat... originally i was on the phone with zhu... one phone call frm Mr Su.. both me and zhu was at St James... hahaha....

Never been to St James before.. lao niang retired le remember??? therefore i was rather sua ku towards St James.... anyway, entry was free... haha.. no need to pay for zhu and me...

Lotsa photos.. reason was we had to wait ard for a table before we can order drinks... so leen decided it was time to cam whore... haha...

~PHOTOS~


leen and moi


us @ a pillar... haha...


me and zhu


Mr Su


leen was trying to smile without opening her mouth..


reason?? she had a missing tooth.. so i told her to use a finger to cover up.. lol...


leen loves me...haha...


"wad??? wad u want??"


yes yes... my hair is in a mess..


zhu's trait to make a face.. join the fun!


leen and ren... she is realli determined to zip her lips.. haha..


cam whores!!


another cam whores! haah....

Finally we got a seat after walking in circles... 1st drink i think was martell with green tea... bottoms up... then ren kept bottoms up duno how many times with me... juz mi.. and i have to drink his share coz he had to drive us home... SEH!!!!

back to cam whoring~~


me and ren.. that hand belongs to miss shue bao zhu...


Ren is jealous that i got cosy with leen.. heh....


us after returning frm dance floor...


me.. tiring after dancing....


covering up her missing holes... so "V"!!!


she's angry coz we left her at table for dancing...


Wei chuan, Wei lian and Ren...


I have no idea wads that face for...


leen and zhu~


@ the Boiler~

left for the Boiler.. my ears rang like shit.. hahah.. music too loud... the seats outside Boiler was cool.. swing bench!! my fave!! haha.. was swinging and swinging.. but i felt seh lah..

the 6 of us took Wei chuan's MPV.. watching doramon dvd inside... damn cock... sent zhu home 1st coz she had to work today.. then search for some place to makan.. in the end.. settled for the hougang coffeeshop opp pungol park... got home ard 5 plus.. coming to 6am i think...

woken up by Mr Su Dao Ren again this morning at 10.12am to go Malaysia... wah..i m realli drop dead tired seh... somemore drive to malaysia leh... tio gan by him for not being on.. kaoz.. i tired lah!!! cannot ah... =p....

Now rotting and nua-ing at home.. getting abit bored though.. mayb i shld have gotten my lazy arse up to go malaysia this morning.. *regret* oh well...

PartyWorld

PartyWorld... anyone?? =)

been on a ktv craze... went to PartyWorld duno how many times already... guess i m looking for a source to vent my fustration... even i tot i had given myself a solution to my prob.. oh well.. going to ktv seems to be my best option.. =)

anyone wans to join me on my Partyworld "venting fustration" session... juz gimmi a buzz... =)

since things had been on the heavier side for the past 2 weeks.... lets tok abt something light today...

juz came back home frm yenting's hse... guitar practise.. travelled all the way to woodlands with jiwen, leon and sharu ard 5pm... damn far.. lucky got str8 bus...

felt happy today for the 1st time after feeling down since 2 weeks ago.. the old days seems to be back.. although we play like shit today.. out of tune.. out of timing.. out of everything.. =)... played until my fingertips started to peel... *ouch* i have no idea how are we going to perform on stage next thurs...

decided.. i m going to keep myself busy everyday.. i dun wan to think of unnecessary stuff... its time to end le i guess.. since i did not get any response... see how ba.. see how it goes... haiz...

ok... i have to stop the negative tots.. coz i felt happy today... i m going to keep it that way...

I fell in love with these song the moment i heard it.. sang by Xiao Jing Teng... written by Ah Xin frm FIR... seems to be able to feel for the lyric... haiz...

萧敬腾 - 原谅我
作词：阿沁(FIR)&陈天佑&吴易纬
作曲：阿沁(FIR)
专辑：同名专辑

请不要分了以後还记得
亲吻过的承诺
你的永久 已不属於我
默默低头 那时我 很多话梗在喉咙
你的笑 你的快乐 不是我
爱太多想太多
我能感受 他比我适合
爱放了手 我伪装冷漠 比你先说分手

请原谅我 原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口
好让你离开我
请原谅我 好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受
换你过更好的生活

请不要分了以後还记得
亲吻过的承诺
你的永久 已不属於我
默默低头 那时我 很多话梗在喉咙

你的笑 你的快乐 不是我
爱太多想太多
我能感受 他比我适合
爱放了手 我伪装冷漠 比你先说分手

请原谅我 原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口
好让你离开我

请原谅我 好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受
换你过更好的生活

爱过恨过哭过也笑过
亲吻过你的脆弱
其实我比谁都要懦弱

原谅我 必须假装爱错
别让时间倒流
我怕说不出口

原谅我 没有解释太多心痛
别无所求彻底忘了我
爱原来要舍得

我 难过
我 才懂

Having a splitting headache now... haiz.. hurts like hell...

turn off my lights at 5am... barely slpt for 4 hrs and i woke up already..

guess i have too much things on my mind... time to raise my white flags to surrender already?? i m reluctant to do so.. yet.. the situation doesn't seems to allow me to hold on...

it takes two hands to clap... it takes two to tango...

but... well... i m alone now... the one i wan to clap hands and tango with.. does not seems to wan to do so with me anymore... its sad.. disappointing... coz i tot something more that could be done..

in front of family, friends and students... i smile.. luff.. but who knows when my heart is crying and bleeding inside...

haiz.. ok lah.. i need my bed.. the nerves ard my head are pumping damn hard.. realli very pain.. realli very pain... .... ....

this is it..

to break or to make..

of coz i hope for the latter...

having alot of thoughts these few days even after keeping myself very busy... thoughts juz floats to my mind when i took those long bus rides...

missed the times with juz u and mi sending messages to one another in friendsters... missed the times with juz u and mi in chalet.. missed the times with juz u and mi walking dwn roads of singapore in the middle of the nite.. missed the times with juz u and mi in genting...

i missed them.. coz there were juz u and mi...

hai...

almost every nite i toss and turn... almost every day i stared blank into space....

i will keep my promise after that conversation with the person u called for help.. i will not call nor text u... however.. i begin to wonder last nite.. the wait... this wait makes me feel worthless and unwanted... is there a need to belittle myself to such state...

so..

i missed the times with juz u and mi sending messages to one another in friendsters... missed the times with juz u and mi in chalet.. missed the times with juz u and mi walking dwn roads of singapore in the middle of the nite.. missed the times with juz u and mi in genting...

i missed them.. coz there were juz u and mi...

juz u and mi...

haven i mentioned before.. do not lie to me.. regardless wat kind of lies... big lie.. small lie.. white lie or wad...

for.. there will be a heavy price to pay if i caught u lying through ur teeth..

now.. u have to pay for the price... whether it will hinders ur career or not... i will do wad is deem fit to ensure myself in all ways... no point asking mi to drop the matter...

conclusion... if u do not wan to receive such "treatments" then DO NOT even think to lie to me.. i always have my ways to find out soon or later...

this applies to all my frens too!

Lies not good... Lies bad...

** disclaimer: not that i dun lie.. i m no angel.. i lie to my mum the most.. but i juz cannot take it when u have err once.. or twice.. or many times.. and i have caught u ALL the freaking times.. and u promised not to keep me in the dark on everything.. i will not let u off... mayb 1st or 2nd time i will juz get u to reassure me that everything is ok.. but now.. u wait long long oso will not happen... if u cannot kept ur promises to me... i will MAKE sure u keep them to me in whatever ways possible!

today is a down day...

its lies after lies after lies..

when will it stop?

i m so tired...

was at hm after tuition... was playing game and eating my dinner... but somehow felt something not right somewhere...

and...

i was right... zhu called mi.. and told mi she saw something that does not tally with what he says...

immediately reaction? pissed! women's six sense are not to be raffled with... its always spot on and it always tells me exactly wad was wrong...

confronted him.. after all the argument and ridiculous conversation... i m confused tonite.. very confused... i duno who to believe... my best fren and her bf who had witness the unforgivable.. or the statement that he and his colleague said...

see.. this is why one should not tell such lies to ur partner... SHOULD NOT!!... whether its white lies or not.. whether its scared that i will be angry or not.. u juz shld not tell lies like that... if u had dun nth wrong why lie? now that i had found out the truth... i m even more angry... PISSED...

u think i am still able to believe anything that u said?? huh?? answer.. no.. no... NO!!! even u had done nth wrong at all.. how to believe u now that u lied to me in the 1st place... how to?? teach mi... it is not a matter now whether u were innocent now... coz.. who will believe u?? pple saw...pple saw... not one... but two pple.. 2 pairs of eyes... they say one thing.. but u said another...

haiz.. i juz cant help but cry.. how... i duno wad to do... *sob* why cant u juz stop lying for me to trust u... why... cant u juz help me out here to trust u?? hai.. i realli have to think things hard and through...

confused.. you put me through this confusion... and i dun have a solution this time..

can i juz becoz i love u so much that i juz turn a blind eye to the things that u did and said?

haiz... it juz one thing after another..

why cant our happy days last longer?? why muz u pull stunts all the time? every now and time.. i had this heartfelt thoughts that we could juz stay somewhere away frm singapore... juz the two of us... haiz...

think hard esther... haiz...

sry zhu... i know u and ah fir very angry... i appreciate what u two did as frens to me... u did the right thing... if u 2 had kept it frm me.. i will sure break off all ties with u 2... juz like what happen to alvin and eve... ren and leen.. thanks for coming down when baozhu called u.. i realli din know that both of u will be down... appreciate that too... and ren.. thanx for the msg... "wad are frens for... bo gei gao..." realli realli appreciate that.. i m touched.. realli..

today was a happy then pissed then sad day to me.. but at least now i know i cannot let my guard dwn anymore... and after today.. i know i have those frens to rely on to let me know the truth... thank you frm the bottom of my heart...

I m back...

Exams ended.. officially last week friday...

hang out at expo.. there were so many fairs... then headed to grace's crib for mahjong till say morning...

met up with zhu in town in the same afternoon... walked ard far east plaza.. got my shoes and tops!! happy!! followed by a treat frm zhu to party world... afterwhich ren, leen and her bro crashed in... mind you.. they din pay anything.. haha... passed leen her very belated present... an addias jacket.. glad that she loved it... in return was treated to dinner at big sissor's curry rice.. yum...

hibernated for 15 hrs after i got hm on sat nite... (din slp since thurs nite... haha..)

then on tues... with juz one bag pack... off to Genting i went!!! hee...

ok.. i was overly excited.. but come on... its the 1st time that i will be out of singapore WITHOUT my family... and its with dear dear... =)

was so anxious... dear's parents however.. seemed to be even more anxious than me.. reason? dearie's mum bought all the necessities for us.. toothpaste.. mouth wash... blah blah blah... and his dad kept asking mi if i had brought medicine.. passport and if i had changed my money to riggit... he even gave us extra money.. haha.. so cute...

anyway.. uncle and aunty sent us to the golden mile on tues morn... so.. after buying coffee, cigarettes and report to my grandma that i m about to set off... we board on the grassland bus... =)

well.. its a long ride.. stopped at yong peng for a break... bought about rm70 worth of food back... we reached 1st world hotel slightly faster than the expected time... was kinda blur at where to check in at 1st... after all the hussle... we are at our small hotel room located at tower 2 - 28th floor...

Us in the bus =)

=D

On our way up!!


The hotel we are staying - 1st world hotel


Mother and baby monkeys.. cute rite

Looking over Genting at our room level... top floor..

*hee*

head off 1st to the time square to buy movie tix... got two shows one is "My wife is a gambling mastro" and "Narnia: the prince naspian" ...

before the 1st show starts we decided to take a look at the ripley's believe it or not... it was pretty interesting.. dear and i was very amused with the exhibits... and went for the van helsing's 3D experience... seriously.. its plain stupid and a waste of money... juz some stand still 3D paintings on the wall and a few staffs hiding at one corner waiting for the right moment to BOO! you...

Chair made of toothpicks.. can hold up to 200 pounds..

History of poker cards..

yup.. he is a great balancer... not forgetting to mention strong..


for me.. i juz wan to prevent them frm falling on my face..

on the other side of the glass panel is a mirror.. with a tv program challenging u to roll and/or flip ur tongue in front of the mirror.. dear did it.. i din.. and heng i din do it... coz.. on this side... u can see all the idiots rolling and flipping their tongues.. haha...


and on top of the glass panel is this phrase... and we agree...

supposed to bring u luck in the casino... and nope.. it din work..


yes.. the manique's hand dropped!

there are enuff ties here for u to wear everyday for 50 years..

after the "scary" moments we've got.. we walked ard bought some snacks for grandma.. and return to times square to luffed our heads off at the 1st movie... then we bought marry brown's back to our room to eat.. rest abit.. and rushed to the 2nd movie which was not that great as the 1st narnia... not that magical i guess... then i bought the 3rd pair of movie for wed afternoon... "Iron man"...

its starting to get cold and misty at nite... bought cup noodles to eat... after cleaning up.. we headed dwn to the starworld casino.. applied for the starworld card... lost rm20.. oh well.. better than this one guy that we saw... he lost rm2000 in juz 5mins... serious.. we juz walked frm the middle of the casino room to the end and back.. he was changing another rm 2000 for chips... mad or wad!!

it was almost 3am when we decided to take a walk to all the hotels.. haha... all linked up wat... most of the shops had already closed though... hee... passed by a couple of seven seven shops.. similar to out seven elevens... and we realised that we were ripped off!!! the cup noodles were 50sen cheaper!!! haha...

the 1st sign was funny.. u have to lift ur skirt when on the elavator.. lol...

dear saw cigars with weird flavour.. so decided to buy one and try.. apparently.. he was addicted... walked back to 1st world's starbucks... wanted to buy some drinks.. but closed already... end up we bought some curly fries and porridge frm marry brown's to our rm to eat...

slpt for awhile.. then got up to makan at this restaurant named flavours... food's not bad...

utensils comes in a box...

fried tofu in thai chilli sauce...


soup of the day... melon soup..

dear's curry chicken rice in a pot

my gong bao chicken rice in pot..

bought popcorns for zhu before entering to watch Iron man.. show was not bad... then we went back to drop the stuff we bought and roamed ard to hotel highlands and other hotels... passed by seven seven again.. and yes.. dear bought the cigars... one box this time... walked back to 1st world... saw kids playing in water and eating ice cream in such a cold environment.. siao... tok oso got mist k... bought a cap for dear... and a very cute box of poker card... its in bone shaped and with dog prints... then we settled down at starbucks for coffee... while dear enjoyed his cigar...

ok... bad shot....

much better... us in the cineplex..

he thinks he is L...

i realli think the both of us loved this kind of chilly temperature.. and agreed that if we ever have enuff money.. we will definitely spent it on traveling... =D

look at the mist!!

was ripped off again at this curry hse... haiz... it was stated self service that we have to go and scooped the food we wan (abit like chiap cai peng) but we had to pay a 10% service charge... kaoz... the food not nice loh... damn salty... then we rest for the nite... but was greatly disturbed by the malay kids next door... haiz... then dear duno why.. woke up super early... i think 12am or 1am?? we started to pack our bags abit... changed and bought marry brown's curly fries again... yummy k... then we drank starbucks again..

us hanging out at nite

oya.. guess wad.. it was raining cats and dogs for like the past 2 days... freezing~~~

seriously... i dun wan to leave genting... haiz.. its like to relax... can do things at our own pace and likings... when pple are slping in their hotel rooms.. we are outside roaming ard... hmmm...

anyway.. on our way back... almost met a car accident... plus we were delayed for 30 mins at the custom becoz 2 mid-age couple were caught in procession of a tube of cigerettes and 30 dvds... which total up to abt $3000++ ... sing dollar k... they refused to pay... haiz... stupid bunch of pple... greedy somemore.. 30 discs leh...

hmm.. oh well.. i still enjoyed my trip very much... =D hee... lets go again k...

its 5.44am in the morning... i am awake! hmm... well... the fact is i haven slpt yet....

reason?

got a econs paper coming up later at 10am.. drats.. why is it that it feels like i m on a death roll?

argh...

the tots of making my way to expo realli kinda freak me out...

its like... omg.. what if i blank out again... what if i dun understand any qns at all...

haiz... i m realli having exam anxiety...

dear came to find me last nite.. bought my fave pens... thank u dear... he even bought snacks and drinks and stay awhile to keep mi company while i was studying under my void deck...

*touch* =)

but i m still freaking out nonetheless...

*tearing*

tons of formulas are running through my brain now... National accounts.. current account.. govt deficits... multiplier... public wealth... blah blah blah.. the list goes on and on...

haiz.. i hate exams.. i need more time...

even though dear had been reminding me and counting down for me that its 17 days to the day i leave for Genting... cant wait.. realli...

yet the tots of having to brave through the exam papers 1st... makes me feel that Genting can wait.. u know.. wait abit longer.. juz a tiny weeny bit longer..

BUT LATER IS MY EXAM ALREADY!!!!! so wth am i toking abt..

i m realli toking nonsense now.. help..... help~~~~~

strrrreeessssss ahhhhh!!!!!

alots of things happening..

BUT!!!!

Exam period now.. mugging hard...

promises to update soon... after my exams...!!

Wish mi lotsa luck!!!!

David Cook sang Music of the Night!!!!!!

btw.. i have a question for myself...

am i too forgiving...

it seems so that way... haiz...

one day i might regret forgiving.. or mayb i will not... who knows...

having a bad hunch that similar incident will happen again..

jer's dad told me a story last nite...

there are 20 pple sitting around a big round table in heaven... rite in the center of the table.. there are alot of delicious food.. and each of them hold on to a long long chopsticks...

in hell.. the same situation... 20 pple.. round table... food and long chopsticks...

now.. onli the 20 pple in heaven managed to consume the food.. but the pple in hell were unable to.

why?? think abt it...

ok..

now.. usually how to get to heaven? pple who done alot of good deeds and are willing to share and give..

how abt hell? of coz the opp frm the pple who gets into heaven... they had done alot of bad deeds and are the selfish lot...

so... the pple in heaven shared and give.. they share the food and fed each other.. coz the chopsticks are very long very long..

but in the hell.. pple are selfish.. they onli think of themselves.. that is why they can never feed themselves with such a long chopsticks...

moral of the story? duno.. haha.. u say leh??

i m utterly mad today..

my dearest idiotiotic big-time liar boyfriend lied to mi once and AGAIN!

seriously.. if its for official business.. why the lies?

u think u are so-called the "businessman" u can lie??

juz when can u kick off ur lying habit? if u dun lie u will die is it?

bloody liar...

u jolly well know that i hate liars.. yet and again... u lied to mi...

dared mi?? u pick the wrong person to dare..

wake ur family up? i can... since i m dared.. i did...

jer.. wake up ur bloody idea lah...

preached to me about living within means when i wan to go genting...

pui!

wad bout u?

u are not living withing ur means... u are NOT even using your own money...

yet.. u spend money like water...

for business purposes?? are u sure?? or was it for personal "face" gain??

preach to URSELF before u start preaching to other...

u filthy big liar...

slapping u served u right to the core!!!

u... u.... argh!!!

if starting to trust u is to be lied by u.. then i guess i've really done wrong...

if stop checking up on u is wrong too... then i guess i will have to start to check up on u again...

btw.. stop using ur father and mother as excuses...

caused.. i've checked with them...

no such things ever mentioned by them...

LIAR!!!!! i hate liar!!!!!!

haiz... actually i felt very bothered over the conversation i had with dear tonite... its like.. starting ok.. then ended up not ok...

imagine.. graph.. the line is going up.. then suddenly.. it juz dropped.. all the way to negative... *studied too much maths..*

haiz.. juz felt so angry with him all of a sudden... n worst of all.. i dun think he even noticed... argh!!! wth lah!!!

#%^$#^%&^&!*

angry angry angry.. ahhhhhh.....

he is always fast when it comes to solving maths equations.... but so damn slow-witted when it comes to realisation of my "this moment" feeling.. haiz...

u cock head lah... ='(

tell me.. how right is it for a grown up man to enter a ladies' toilet for toilet inspection unannounced and with the door closed when there are 2 females in the cubicles?

hmmm.... not right??

today.. while hogging up a place at amk ave 6 mac to mug... i paid a visit to the toilet.. of coz.. due to nature's call... i had a shock rite after i walked out off the toilet cubicle to wash my hands... there was a mac staff standing in the toilet...

my 1st thought was OMG!! there's a guy in a female toilet!!! i panic...

then again.. my other thoughts was.. how can a guy enter a girl's toilet?? was that realli a guy? or a girl looking like a guy....

so i kinda stared at that person while washing my hands...

YES!! i confirmed that this person standing in front of the closed toilet door, ticking off his check list, who blocked my exit (i stood there for like 3 mins... he seems to treat me and the other lady to be invisible...) is a GUY!!!

only after i Ummhum so very loudly then he moved aside...

after walking back to my table.. i related the incident and discussed what i shld do... well.. i cant juz let this matter rest... coz it is a common knowledge and a social identity which we learnt the moment we are born... *nan nu shou shou bu qing* meaning.. man and woman should keep a distance.. so how can this man enter a ladies' toilet like that?

so i hurried to the counter to speak to the floor manager.. 1st of all i confirmed with her again that the person who's in charge of the toilet is MAN..... ( dun wan to accuse anyone if its my mistake for wrong gender identity... ) i related the incident and how disturbed i was to know that a man entered into the private restroom which was meant for the ladies unannounced... meaning no knocking.. no verbal announcement that he is entering.. and he din even leave the door open while doing the inspection...

then she explained to me that that guy was not normal (mentally)... the tone she used was like expecting me to be understanding to that guy... haiz.. whether i sympathise him or be understanding towards his situtation or not.. he is still a MAN for heaven's sake.. a being with a dick who is known a man/male!! whether he is mentally able or not.. he still have to understand that there are still steps to follow to do his job...

i even reprimanded the floor manager with this simple fact... if anything happened.. who will be responsible?? it will not be the mentally disable man.. but her.. reason?? she made the guy in charged of the toilet... most of all.. she made a mentally not normal man to be in charge of the toilet...

come on.. juz becoz he is mentally not able that makes him 100% eligble for the toilet job?? if that is the case.. then seriously.. anything happens will be also 100% the floor manager's responsibility...

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anyway.. was rather pissed with dear... haiz.. fed up.. irritating!!!!!

seriously.....

I have decided wad i wan my kids to learn when they are still a young toddler...

nope.. its not english class... chinese cailigraphy class... ballet class and wad so ever...

i wan to send them for dancing class (NOT ballet) but dance class like samba, jive, tango rumba those sort...

multiple language courses too.. german, japanese, french, chinese dialect such as cantonese, hokkien blah blah blah....

also.. of course... the old tradition of a must... piano class.. =)

haha...

Missing someone gets easier everyday.... Because, even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other, it is one day closer to the next time you will…

Dear made mi luff so hard today... i luffed until my jaw hurts... haha...

wad are we luffing abt?

actually.. over nth... realli... over nth... haha... hmm.. ok lah.. i guess over small (stupid/silly) things/gesters that we do... lol...

i must say.. its been a very long time that the both of us luffed so hearty...

I Love You.. =)

Yawn... its 5.33am... i m so god damn tired... *yawn yawn yawn*

i so wan to slp.. but i have to tong!!!! at least until 7am... reason? haiz.. apparently my mum had stitches on her head... wad the hell happened? honestly... i do not have the slightest idea at all... she simply refused to tell me... haiz... so i have to get up at 7am to apply some cream for her...

which oso explains why she never returns to work after her trip frm japan... hmm...

that is why i m still up at this hour.... one hr pluz to go... zzz...

anyway.. been studying POA with XY at amk ave 6 mac... i must say we made good progress.. =D

oso... i had been having war with the insects living at mac... it was HORRIBLE... ants (red and black), spiders, beetles (the ones with horns), water bugs, blah blah blah... oh ya.. not forgetting there was a lizard shit bombs.... the shit juz dropped from the ceiling!!! and its bloody big sized!!! -.-""

guess we are still going to spend another few more days study at mac... =) muz go prepare already.. XY was mentioning bygon... maybe i will bring that on top of the mosquito patch.. hehe...

argh.. i realli cannot tahan le.. 7am come 7am come.. QUICK!!!

well.. here i m... back home...

=)

had a rough nite with dear last nite.. haiz.. lucky.. it ended...

I love you still baby.... I heart you... =D

dear acc mi to sch in the afternoon when his class starts at nite..

after class.. rushed over to fetch grandma to my crib...

haiz.. tired coz my bag was darn heavy with my lappy, clothes, books and notes... haha.. not forgetting my super loaded pencil case.. hee...

finished Hero season 2.. *yay* happy that i finished the show.. but pissed with the ending... i m now left dangling with the half ended story.. i m so neither here nor there...

** oh writers.. pls stop protesting... come back to write a good story for mi can... pls pls... **

hmm... received a sad msg frm a good old fren.. his closed one had passed on... haiz...

Take care k.. my condolences to u my friend...

at dear's crib now...

trimmed my hair yesterday =)... happy with the end product.. my hair looks much more normal..

met up with xy and erwin.. haha... coz i was so bored at gramp's hse... coz waiting for dear to finish his appointment with his client...

hanged out under one of the blocks ard sin ming area.. tok cock sing song play blackjack... haha... fun.. coz at 1st.. erwin was on a winning streak... he won xy 20 bucks leh... BUT!!! (lol.. there is always a "but"...) in the very end.. xy got too confident... one hand bet 10 bucks.. in 2 rounds.. she lost everything.. lol... she was so buay song....

Happy April Fool's Day

I m so happy~~~~ *excited excited*

hee.. Juz came back frm ICA.. going to get my new passport on this friday!!! omg omg...

I can go genting le... yay!!!!! I m so happy..

totally cannot contain my excitement.. how how how??

hahahaha...

came across this somewhere... its a letter from a son to his father...

PS: if u cant see very well.. double click the pic for the enlarged version... =)

was reading my own blog juz now.. realised that i've realli got alot of mix emotion today... i realli swing frm one side to another... haha... cant help.. i m having my "da yi ma" (period) soon... so i assume i m going to have a lot more mood swing... hee... so bear with mi...

*sad*

Grandma fell sick again.. again fever hike... *worry*

haiz.. hmm.. move on to happy stuff...

dear was so happy juz now.. he had sign an exclusive with someone and got a listing... =) happy for him..

and baby promised to go on the genting trip with mi.. that means.. we will spent our 2 years and 7 months anniversary there!! hee.. *happy happy happy*

i am so excited... i m so happy... ok.. i know i sound like 'happy' is the onli word on my dictionary.. but.. i m realli happy k... haha...

I love you baby.. *huggies*

oh...

i am so pissed....

why muz my mum do so many idiot things behind my back?? stupid woman...

u wan to leave the country.. go!! why mess up my life?? argh...

disturb other pple to suit ur needs.. wtf lah k...

may hell be with u! coz i will not let u have ur way...

I WILL NOT!!!!

yesterday... the brits insult the singaporeans.. damn! i dun like u, james ward.. so wad if u are a british lecturer.. shldn't u b abit more respectful when u are in other pple's country?? haiz...

anyway... met up with zhu after sch.. usual chit chat.. then went for some researching on laptops.. zhu wan to buy.. haha...

bought two ties for dear.. coz its our 2 years and six months anniversary... =) nice?

dear surprised mi coz he rent to rent a car... brought mi to AMK hub for movie... Semi-Pro.. its a stupid but funny show.. hahaa... *love me sexyyyy~~~*

econs class today.. tonite... haiz...

i m alone too.. =(

xy's not coming.. boring!!!!!

reading through the notes now... *alien alien*

=s

Juz reach home... =)=)=)

took von out today to jer's grandfather hse... i think he too excited.. pissed every where and kept chasing ger ger... haiz.. tired mi out...

i think von oso tired dear's dad.. uncle kept playing with von.. haha.. funny...

had a chat with dear juz b4 he sent mi home... was discussing on how to help ah fir (zhu's bf).. called quite a bit of pple to see if can get a job contact.. hopefully he can get the job.. so that he wun need to be seperated frm zhu... =)

dear.. 2 more days to 2 and a half years...

=D

Juz got home.. dinner with zhu.. her treat wor.. how nice..

big freaky downpour today.. it juz came down suddenly...

actually i kinda like it.. well.. it was windy and cold.. cold enuff to make me shiver when sitting under my void deck.. cold enuff to kind of cool my temper.. cold enuff to calm my irritated nerves... haiz...

anyway.. was braving through the rain to fetch my grandma who's at my aunt's house... this lady listened to my stupid mum by not bringing her usual big bag which had her umbrella, my aunts' hse key and my hse key... well done rite? haiz.. these pple... wad are they thinking?

=/

listening to avril's when you are gone.... feels for the song...

*emo-ing now*


P.S: Zhu, thanx again for the treat today... =)

Mood had been very bad since the start of the day...

Now?? at 3.05am... it had been worsen!!

what is wrong with going to genting?? i m not spending ur money... i m spending mine.. how is it not spending within my means?? why muz u put mi down like that?? why???

Just wad the hell u wan?? i say fine.. not going le.. u still continue and continue... wad the heck u wan??

you juz have to provoke mi until i say the things that u dun like abt u.. then u got pissed becoz i hit the sore point... for wad fuck?

fine.. thank you for making the effort to bring food for mi in the middle of the nite.. thank you.. realli... but is there a need to say mi until like that when i juz trying to share my excitement of going out of singapore at least? huh? is there? i m not asking u to pay for mi neither m i forcing u to go... why make all those comments?

why cant u juz stop when i told u its enuff and that i dun wan to quarrel with u? why cant u juz shut it??

you wan mi to answer ur qn.. i answered.. but u are not satifised and claimed that i m obliged to ans u.. wtf?

kept putting words into my mouth somemore.. kept saying i dun bother abt ur work when u dun share with mi..

haiz.. hai.. hai....

tell mi lah.. wad u wan mi to do?? haiz.. why is it that i juz wan to go to nearby country for a budget holiday is so difficult? haiz.. fine.. seemed like i have to stay in singapore for the rest of my life... hai.. so much for all the excitement of going to genting.. let alone going to barcelona in the future...

Fuck my life k.. fuck it...

Came across this interest thingy... Enjoy reading!! hee...

Types of orgasm:

1. Asthmatic: Aahh... ahhh... ahhh!

2. Geographical: Here, here, here, here!

3. Mathematician: More, more, more, more!

4. Religious: Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh my god!

5. Suicidal: I’m dying! I’m dying! I’m dying!

6. Criminal type: If you stop now, I kill you!

7. Zootehnician: Come my bull, come!

8. Cheerleader: Give it…give it…give it!

9. English Teacher: Oh… yes, oh…good…

10. Project manager: Don’t stop! Go on, go on!

11. Negativiste: Nooo, noooooooo!

12. Positiviste: Yes…yes… yes!

13. The Teacher: Yes… like that… there…very good… correct… perfect

14. Misinformed: What is that?...Why?... What are you doing to me!...

15. Clearsighted type: I feel it coming… it’s almost here... I see it , I see it!

Updates

hilow~~~

haha.. sry for the distant updates...

been rather busy and laptop went bonkers...

ok... hmm.. lets see... i had took up a part-time job as a tutor in a tuition center... yes.. u read it right.. a tutor.. esther a tutor... =) working with emily now.. haha... funny...

next.. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.. Gong Xi Fai Cai.. haha... been very packed during this cny season.. with many visitation plus many many dinner appointments... watched 2 movies this cny so far... sweeney todd and CJ7...

sweeney todd is damn bloody lah.. watched this on cny day 2 with dear dear... hahah...

CJ7 was quite brainless therefore funny.. caught this show last nite together with dear's parents..

exam next week... stressed can...

more makan sessions this weekend... rented a car... manual... haha.. hope i wun stall my engine on the road..

hmmm... got to prepare for work...

Cheers.

* PS: Happy Valentine's Day to all, especially to dear dear... love u baby... hearts u