xmas ='(

this is the worst x'mas i had ever had... felt so horrible now....

tot everything had planned out nicely.... morning go yenting's hse... after steamboat ends in the afternoon... i can rush back hm.. bath.. change... then go out n meet dear... coz going to his relative's hse.... n end off xmas eve wif a movie...

in the end?

everything was ruined by a msg..... my aunts... especially my small aunt... she demanded mi to be hm by 11pm else dun go anywhere.... i almost broke out in tears in yenting's hse...

after discussing wif my big aunt... it was agreed that i can go the movie.. but b back hm be4 the bus service ends...

went to his relative hse... had a great time there.... was warmly welcomed by the big family... but cant join them for the movie... coz the ticket they booked was at 1235am... haiz.. sad....

then asked dear... if i can catch a movie with him today... he said ok... n now? haiz... he had to go to his gramps' hse... haiz.. no choice... guess i can go for the movie myself... alone... not the 1st time anyway... every single year's xmas had been this way...

called him.. wanted to discuss a solution.. all he said was bye... bye... bye... *cry* y muz like tat?? was so angry n sad that i juz slammed the phone.... regreted after tat... ='( but yet... he refused to tok to mi... haiz...

this is the lousiest xmas i guess... even though i never had a great one...