its 5.36am in the morning.. and yes.. i juz got home..

seriously.. i've been feeling very down this past week... over eCR, driving, working, money.. n juz 3 hrs ago.. i blew up..

everything went fine today.. perfect actually... dear came over my hse early after meeting his fren.. though he fell aslp.. then woke up and took mi out for dinner at mos.. took a slow long walk b4 and after our meals.. contented..

then.. went dwn to meet him.. was actually abit reluctant to go dwn meet him.. coz.. well... take it as i selfish.. but i wan to spent the rest of the day with dear on his off day.. but.. ok.. nvm.. went dwn still in the end... meet up.. i juz left the two of them to tok.. i seriously never tok much at all.. i juz sat dwn there.. drink.. play abit of psp.. stared into blank space.. n feeling bored..

finally got to walk abit.. tot can go home.. in the end walk to mccafe.. ok.. nvm.. then tummy pain.. but no one even bothered.. two of them still continued to tok.. ok.. nvm still.. then he juz have to open his mouth n mention the name that i never ever wan to hear again in my entire life until i die.. he of all pple shld noe this beta.. still can say this to mi.. "not toking to you... "

FUCK YOU!! i haven die yet ok..

not even a word of sorry.. nvm.. then u cannot keep ur mouth shut already meh? still continue to say.. "aiya. not toking to you..."

was so pissed off... i juz stomped off... after duno how long.. dear came.. feeling angry... in the end.. quarrelled over this stupid incident.. ok fine.. take it as that its my fault to feel angry.. but i dun have the rights to mah? juz cried all the way.. although in the end. everything turns out ok.. but.. haiz... this is taxing... this is draining too much frm mi...

seriously... warning to all pple out there who noes and dun noe wad happened.... do not... juz DO NOT mention these names (Jolin, Yizhen, Cindy) in front of mi.. for the last time... DO NOT EVER EVER EVER MENTION THEM... do not blame if i blew up at u or wad... i will cursed u till the very last of my breathe...