i m so feelingless...

feel so bad... i juz yelled at my ah mah... =(

y haf i become like tat...

last time... is wan to spent time wif her... but no time... coz i need to b wif someone who need to spent time wif mi.... do proj... prepare for presentation... study for exams... now... i got all the time in the world le... no one... no proj... no presentation.. no exams... n yet... now... i will easily b irriated by every little thing she sae or do...

such as... keep ranting on mi to eat.... keep buying food for mi when i said i dun wan for the duno how many times... keep asking mi if i m coming hm for dinner when i had already told her twice i m not...

i noe... i noe.... she is juz being concern of mi... but... all these juz gets on my nerves...

juz wad is wrong wif mi?? in the past... i m not like tat... y...

i still love my grandma alot but... yet... i distance away frm her.... i used to tell her every secrets i have in my heart... things tat i dun dare to let my mum noe... she will noe... but now... i juz dun feel like toking to her anymore.... let alone baring my heart out to her...

she is getting old n weak... everyday tat i see her like tat... getting more n more frail... my heart realli aches... i realli wan to go to her... n gives her massages like i used to... but... i juz din... i will juz walk away frm her... y???

i realli wan to go back to being close to her... but... i m scared... wad shld i do....